വാഴ്ത്തപ്പെട്ട സെബാസ്റ്റ്യന്‍ പൌള്‍ ഞങ്ങള്‍ക്ക് വേണ്ടി അപേക്ഷിക്കേണമേ

ഞാന്‍ എന്റെ വിധി എഴുതുകയും പ്രഖ്യാപിക്കുകയും ചെയ്യും"-നീഷൊ
അവസാനം സെബസ്റ്റ്യന്‍ പൌള്‍ തുറന്നു പറഞ്ഞു .പിണറായ്‌ വിജയനു വേണ്ടി നാണം കെടാനും ചാവേര്‍ ആകാനും എന്നെ കിട്ടില്ല.ഈ തുറന്നുപറച്ചില്‍ തികച്ചും സത്യസന്ധമാണ്. ആത്മാര്‍ത്ഥമാണ്.അത് ഹൃദയത്തിന്റെ അടിത്തട്ടില്‍ നിന്ന് നിര്‍ഗ്ഗളിച്ചതാണ്.അതിന് നാം അദ്ദേഹത്തോട് നന്ദി പറയേണ്ടതുണ്ട്.എം പി യും എം എല്‍ എ യും ആയിരുന്നാപ്പോള്‍ ഈ ത്രിച്ചരിവ് ഉണ്ടായില്ലേ എന്ന് സാമാന്യമായും നമുക്കെ സംശയം തോന്നണം.അത് കൊണ്ട് തന്നെ ഈ വെളിപാടിന്റെ ആത്മര്‍ത്തയും സംശയിക്കണം . എന്നാലും ഈ വൈകിയ വേളയില്‍ എങ്കിലും പൌള്‍ മനസ് തുറന്നല്ലോ.സമകാലിക കേരളത്തില്‍ പിണറായി വിജയന് വേണ്ടി സംസാരിക്കുക എന്നതിന് ഒരര്‍ത്ഥമേയുള്ളൂ.ചാവേറാകുകഅതായത് അറിഞ്ഞുകൊണ്ട് കൊല്ലപ്പെടുക.ജോലി,വേതനം, കുടുംബം, അഭിമാനം, അന്തസ്സ് എല്ലാം നഷ്ടപ്പെടുത്തുക.പത്രങ്ങളില്‍ , വാരികകളില്‍, മാസികകളില്‍, ചാനലുകളില്‍ നിന്ന് എന്നെന്നേക്കുമായി തുടച്ചു നീക്കപ്പെടുക.നിരന്തരമായി അപഹസിക്കപ്പെടുക.ഇതിന് തനിക്ക് വയ്യ എന്നേ സെബാസ്റ്റ്യന്‍ പോള്‍ പറഞ്ഞുള്ളൂ.അത് തുറന്നു പറച്ചിലാണ്.ഒപ്പം സമകാലിക സാമൂഹിക വ്യവസ്ഥിതിയുടെ ഒരു നേര്‍ക്കാഴ്ചയും.ബെര്‍ലിന്‍ കുഞ്ഞനന്തന്‍ നായര്‍ക്കു കിട്ടിയത്, അബ്ദുള്ള കുട്ടിക്ക് കിട്ടിയത്, എപ്പോള്‍ പോളിനും കിട്ടി..ആ തുറന്നു പറച്ചിലിന് പുറകില്‍ ഉള്ള ചേതോ വികാരം എന്ത് തന്നെ ആയാലും ഇടതു പക്ഷ മനസുള്ള കേരളത്തിലെ ഒരുപാടു ജനങ്ങള്‍ക്ക്‌ ആശ്വാസം ആയിരികുകയാണ് പോളിന്റെ ഈ പുതിയ മാധ്യമ വിചാരം.രാജാവ്‌ നഗ്നന്‍ അആനെന്നു വിളിച്ചു പറയാനും ആരെങ്കിലും വേണമല്ലോ.എല്ലാം കണ്ടും കേട്ടും പഠിക്കുന്നവനാണ് മനുഷ്യന്‍ , മനനം ചെയ്യുന്നവന്‍,ഇപ്പോള്‍ പോളും മനുഷ്യനായി.സി.ആര്‍.നീലകണ്ഠനെപ്പോലെ, സുരേഷ്കുമാറിനെപ്പോലെ, ഉമേഷ് ബാബുവിനെപ്പോലെ..................അതങ്ങനെ നീണ്ടു കിടക്കയല്ലേ.........ഇടതു പക്ഷ സഹയാത്രികന്‍ എന്നാ നിലയില്‍ ഇനി അദ്ധേഹത്തിന്റെ ഭാവി എന്ത് തന്നെ ആയാലും .......ഈ തുറന്നു പറച്ചിലിലൂടെ അദ്ദേഹം ഒരു പ്രായശ്ചിത്തം ചെയ്തിരിക്കുകയാണ് ...............അങ്ങിനെ അദ്ദേഹവും വിശുദ്ധനായി.വിശുദ്ധ സെബാസ്ത്യന്‍പോള്‍...അദ്ധേഹത്തിന്റെ നാമം വാഴ്ത്തപ്പെടട്ടെ ആമേന്‍

I got my UAE drivers license!!!!

Today i got my UAE drivers license!!!!
I was so nervous but it turned out to be fine. The police man was very nice. I drove around for about 7 minutes and get a round about and an U turn. Atlast he told to change the tracks and stop the vehicle.then i parallel parked behind a truck. As i got out of the car he said that i passed. I was so happy! . I can't wait to go wherever i want. Finally im going to be able to drive to all over UAE. I will be able to go over to my friends place whenever i want. I don't have a car but . I can't wait to go driving !!!
feel like I need to partyyyy...... I'm so happy.

വിശുദ്ധ പശുക്കള്‍

കേരളത്തിലെ ക്രമസമാധാന നില മാധ്യമങ്ങള്‍ ഇല്ലായിരുന്നു എങ്കില്‍ താറുമാറായി പോയെ എന്ന് പോലും തോന്നും ചില കാര്യങ്ങളില്‍ നമ്മുടെ വലതു പക്ഷ കൂലി എഴുത്തുകാരുടെ അവകാശ വാദങ്ങള്‍ കേട്ടാല്‍.ഏഷ്യാനെറ്റും മനോരമയും ഇല്ലാതിരുന്നെങ്കില്‍ കേരളം പണ്ടേ ഒരു ചന്ത പോലെ ആകുമായിരുന്നു എന്ന് തോന്നിപോകും കാര്യങ്ങളുടെ പോക്ക് കണ്ടാല്‍.പോള്‍ മുത്തൂറ്റ്‌ കൊല്ലപ്പെട്ടത് സീ പി എം എന്തോ കൊടും പാതകം ചെയ്തിട്ടാണ് എന്ന മട്ടിലുള്ള ദുഷ്പ്രചരണം വേറെ ആയിരക്കണക്കിന് പാവപ്പെട്ടവര്‍ കേരളത്തില്‍ കൊല്ലപെടുപ്പോഴും കൊണ്ഗ്രെസ്സ് ഭരികുമ്പോള്‍ ഉണ്ടാകുന്ന സംഭവങ്ങളിലും കാണുന്നില്ലല്ലോ.അതെങ്ങനെ
ഒരു സമ്പന്നകുമാരനാണ് പാതിരാത്രിയില്‍ പൊതുവഴിയില്‍ കൊല്ലപ്പെട്ടതെന്നുള്ള വ്യത്യസ്തത മുത്തൂറ്റ് പോള്‍ വധക്കേസിനുണ്ട്. അതല്ലെങ്കില്‍ നാട്ടില്‍ പലപ്പോഴും നടക്കാറുള്ള കൊലപാതകങ്ങളില്‍ ഒന്നുമാത്രമാണത്-രണ്ടോ മൂന്നാ ദിവസം വാര്‍ത്തയില്‍ വരും; പിന്നെ എല്ലാവരും മറക്കും. ഇപ്പോള്‍ പോള്‍വധം ഇന്റര്‍ നാഷണല്‍ സംഭവമായി.കാരിയും കൂരിയും ഓംപ്രകാശും അച്ഛനും ലിജുവും രക്ഷിതാവ് കെ സി വേണുഗോപാലും സുധാകരനും സുധീരനുമെല്ലാം തിമിര്‍ത്താടുകയാണ്. സിബിഐ അന്വേഷണം ആവശ്യപ്പെട്ട് കാരിയുടെ അമ്മയോടൊപ്പം ഹൈക്കോടതിയില്‍ ഹര്‍ജി സമര്‍പ്പിച്ച രാജു പുഴങ്കര ചെന്നിത്തലയ്ക്ക് ചെട്ടികുളങ്ങര ക്ഷേത്രത്തില്‍ തുലാഭാരം നടത്തിച്ചയാളാണ്-പഞ്ചാരകൊണ്ട്. ഹര്‍ജി തള്ളിപ്പോയി. തള്ളിക്കൊണ്ട് ജസ്റ്റിസ് ശശിധരന്‍ നമ്പ്യാര്‍, മാധ്യമങ്ങള്‍ക്ക് കണക്കിന് കൊടുത്തു."മാധ്യമവിചാരണയാണ് കേസില്‍ ഇപ്പോള്‍ നടക്കുന്നത്. പ്രതികളുടെ വിശദാംശങ്ങളും സാക്ഷിമൊഴികളും മാധ്യമങ്ങള്‍ ചര്‍ച്ച ചെയ്യുന്ന പ്രവണത ശരിയല്ല. ഇത് കേസന്വേഷണത്തെ ബാധിക്കും. അഭിഭാഷകര്‍പോലും ചാനല്‍ ചര്‍ച്ചകളില്‍ പങ്കെടുക്കുന്നു. പിന്നീട് ചാനല്‍തന്നെ വിധിപറയുന്നു''ജസ്റ്റിസ് ശക്തമായി കാര്യങ്ങള്‍ പറഞ്ഞു. പിറ്റേന്ന് പത്രം തുറന്നപ്പോള്‍ കണ്ടത് 'പൊലീസിന് കോടതിയുടെ വിമര്‍ശനം' എന്നുമാത്രം. മാധ്യമപ്രവര്‍ത്തനത്തിന്റെ സ്വാതന്ത്ര്യത്തിനും സത്യസന്ധതയ്ക്കുമെതിരെ ഹൈക്കോടതി നടത്തിയ പരാമര്‍ശങ്ങള്‍ക്ക് ഭീഷണിയുടെ സ്വരമാണെന്ന് ഒരു യൂണിയന്‍ പുമാനും പ്രസ്താവിച്ചില്ല; അപലപിച്ചുമില്ല. ഒരു ചാനലും കുന്തവും പിടിച്ച് മാധ്യമവിശാരദന്മാരുടെ ചര്‍ച്ച കുത്തിയിളക്കാന്‍ പോയില്ല. രണ്ടുദിവസത്തിനുശേഷം പിണറായി വിജയന്‍ പത്രക്കാരെ വിളിച്ചു. പറഞ്ഞത് കടുപ്പിച്ചുതന്നെ:"കത്തിവിവാദം കേസ് വഴിതിരിച്ചുവിടുകയെന്ന വ്യക്തമായ ദുരുദ്ദേശ്യത്തിലാണ്. മാധ്യമം എന്ന നിലയ്ക്കുള്ള സംരക്ഷണം ഇല്ലായിരുന്നെങ്കില്‍ പൊലീസ് ഇതേക്കുറിച്ചും അന്വേഷിക്കുമായിരുന്നില്ലേ. ഈ വാര്‍ത്ത നല്‍കിയത് ആര്‍ക്കുവേണ്ടിയാണെന്ന കാര്യം പുറത്തുവരണം. ഏതു വൃത്തികേടിനെയും അനുകൂലിക്കുന്നതാണ് മാധ്യമധര്‍മം എന്ന് കരുതരുത്.''ഇതാണ് പറഞ്ഞ പ്രധാന കാര്യം. ഹൈക്കോടതി ജഡ്ജി സൂചിപ്പിച്ച കാര്യങ്ങള്‍ അല്‍പ്പംകൂടി സ്പഷ്ടമായി പിണറായി വിശദീകരിച്ചു. അതാ, കടന്നല്‍ക്കൂടിളകിവരുന്നു. മുള്ളിലും പല്ലിലും കൊമ്പിലും വാലിലും വിഷമുള്ള ഇനങ്ങള്‍ പറന്നുവരുന്നു. സുധീരാക്രോശം ബാലെ, ചെന്നിത്തലചരിതം ആട്ടക്കഥ, സുധാകരന്‍ തുള്ളല്‍, ഏഷ്യാനെറ്റിന്റെ സിനിമാറ്റിക് ഡാന്‍സ്, മനോരമ വക ചവിട്ടുനാടകം. കൂട്ടത്തില്‍ മനോരമയിലെ സീനിയര്‍ സബ്എഡിറ്ററുടെ ഒരു ദുര്‍ബലശബ്ദവും-പിണറായി ഭീഷണിപ്പെടുത്തുകയാണെന്ന്. ശമ്പളം വാങ്ങുന്ന പത്രത്തിനുവേണ്ടി പറയാനേ തനിക്കധികാരമുള്ളൂ എന്നും നാട്ടിലെ പത്രപ്രവര്‍ത്തകരുടെ സംഘടനയുടെ തലപ്പത്തിരിക്കുന്നത് ഇമ്മാതിരി വെടക്കത്തരം പറയാനല്ലെന്നും ടിയാന്‍ മറന്നുപോയി-ഒരല്‍പ്പനേരത്തേക്ക്(എച്ച്എംവി). കാക്കി നിക്കറിനുമേല്‍ മല്‍മല്‍ മുണ്ടുടുത്ത ഒരു ആര്‍എസ്എസുകാരനും പത്രപ്രവര്‍ത്തക യൂണിയന്‍ നേതാവിന്റെ ബലംപിടിച്ച് ചാനല്‍ചര്‍ച്ചയില്‍ കയറി പിണറായിക്കെതിരെ ഓംകാളി ആക്രോശിക്കുന്നതുകേട്ടു. എല്ലാറ്റിനും സംഘടനയുടെ ബലം! ചെരുപ്പുനക്കലും യൂണിയന്‍ അജണ്ടയോ?എല്ലാവര്‍ക്കും പത്രസമ്മേളനം നടത്താം, സിപിഎമ്മിനെ പുലഭ്യം പറയാം. രമേശ് ചെന്നിത്തല വക എട്ട്, എം ലിജു വക നാല്, ഉമ്മന്‍ചാണ്ടി വക മൂന്ന്, കെ സുരേന്ദ്രന്‍ വക നാല്, പി സി ജോര്‍ജുവക എത്രയെന്ന് തിട്ടമില്ല-ഇങ്ങനെ പത്രസമ്മേളനങ്ങളുടെ പൂരം. എല്ലാം കാരി, കൂരി, അയല തുടങ്ങിയവയ്ക്കുവേണ്ടി. അത് അവരുടെ ജന്മാവകാശം. അതിന് സിപിഐ എം മറുപടി പറയാന്‍ പാടുണ്ടോ? പ്രത്യേകിച്ച് സെക്രട്ടറി പിണറായി വിജയന്‍ മിണ്ടാമോ എന്നതാണ് ചോദ്യം. രണ്ടു പത്രസമ്മേളനം വിളിക്കുക എന്ന മഹാപാതകമല്ലേ പിണറായി ചെയ്തത്. അക്രമം തന്നെ, തന്നെ. പ്രതിഷേധിക്കണം; പ്രകടനം നടത്തണം. മാധ്യമപ്രവര്‍ത്തകന് ശബരീനാഥിന്റെ തൊണ്ടിമുതല്‍ കട്ടുകൊണ്ടുപോകാം, പൊലീസ് അസിസ്റ്റന്റ് കമീഷണറുടെ വീട് ക്വട്ടേഷന്‍ കൊടുത്ത് ആക്രമിപ്പിക്കാം. ഓംപ്രകാശിന്റെ സല്‍ക്കാരം ഉച്ചയ്ക്കും വൈകിട്ടും മുടങ്ങാതെ സ്വീകരിച്ച് ഏമ്പക്കം വിടുന്ന മാധ്യമപുരുഷോത്തമന്മാര്‍ തലസ്ഥാനത്തുണ്ട്. സ്വന്തം മകനും ഓംപ്രകാശും ഒരുകിണ്ണത്തില്‍നിന്ന് ഉണ്ണുന്നതും ഒരുപായില്‍ കിടക്കുന്നതും പറഞ്ഞ് കോള്‍മയിര്‍ക്കൊണ്ട മാധ്യമജിയെ ഇപ്പോള്‍ കാണാനേയില്ല. വന്നുവന്ന് പ്രതികള്‍ക്കുവേണ്ടിയാണ് വാദം. കാരിയുടെ മാതാശ്രീ കുന്തീദേവി. ഓംപ്രകാശന്റെ പിതാശ്രീ പത്മവ്യൂഹത്തില്‍പെട്ട അഭിമന്യുവിനെ ഓര്‍ത്ത് ദുഃഖിക്കുന്ന അര്‍ജുനന്‍. കെ സുധാകരനെ അറിയില്ലെന്ന് പറയാന്‍ ശട്ടംകെട്ടിയാണ് ഓംപിതാവിനെ അഭിമുഖത്തിനിറക്കിയത്. അഭിമുഖങ്ങളും ഫാസ്റ്റ് ഫുഡുപോലെയായി. സിഡി കവറിലാക്കി ചാനല്‍ ആപ്പീസുകളിലെത്തും. അഭിനയിക്കുന്നത് കാരിയാകും. തള്ളമാരും തന്തമാരുമാകും. സംവിധാനം ഖദറിട്ട വിരുതന്മാരാണ്. പിന്നണിയില്‍ മുന്‍ എംഎല്‍എയും മുന്‍ മന്ത്രിയുമായ ഇപ്പോഴത്തെ എംപി-വടക്കന്‍. സുമുഖനോ ദുര്‍മുഖനോ എന്ന് വായനക്കാര്‍ക്ക് തീരുമാനിക്കാം.മുതിര്‍ന്നതും മുതിരാത്തതുമായ മാധ്യമപ്രവര്‍ത്തകരുടെ പ്രതിഷേധമത്സരമാണ് രസകരം. പിണറായി പറഞ്ഞതിന്റെ മെറിറ്റിലേക്ക് കടക്കേണ്ട അവര്‍ക്കാര്‍ക്കും. മാന്യമായ ഭൂതകാലം പോലുമില്ലാത്ത സമ്പന്നപുത്രന്റെ മരണവും സിപിഎമ്മും തമ്മിലെന്തുബന്ധം എന്ന് ആരും ചോദിക്കരുത്. അരയും തലയും മുറുക്കി ഏഷ്യാനെറ്റ് പോലുള്ള വിദേശ മാധ്യമ കുത്തകയും നാടന്‍ പിഡബ്ള്യുഡി ചാനലും(സ്പോണ്‍സേഡ് ബൈ മുത്തൂറ്റ്) ഇടപെടുന്നതിന്റെ യുക്തി ചോദിക്കുന്നത് മാധ്യമസ്വാതന്ത്ര്യത്തിനു നേരെയുള്ള കടന്നാക്രമണമാകുന്നു. മഠത്തില്‍ രഘുവിന്റെ ദുബായിലെ ഹോട്ടലില്‍ ഓംപ്രകാശനും പുത്തന്‍പാലം രാജേഷും ഉണ്ട് എന്ന് റിപ്പോര്‍ട്ട് ചെയ്ത ഫൈസല്‍ ബിന്‍ അഹമ്മദ് എന്ന ലേഖകനും ബിന്‍ ലാദനും തമ്മിലെന്തെങ്കിലും ബന്ധമുണ്ടോ എന്നറിയില്ല. എന്തായാലും ആ മാധ്യമലാദന്റെ അന്വേഷണാത്മക റിപ്പോര്‍ട്ട് ഏഷ്യാനെറ്റിന്റെ താടിവച്ച ഒരു മഹാനും ക്യാമറയ്ക്കുമുന്നില്‍വന്ന് നിഷേധിക്കുന്നതുകണ്ടില്ല, കള്ളം പറഞ്ഞതിന്റെ ജാള്യവും അവരുടെ മുഖത്തുകണ്ടില്ല.പോള്‍ വധവും സിപിഎമ്മും തമ്മില്‍ എന്തുബന്ധം എന്ന ചോദ്യം ഏതെങ്കിലും മാധ്യമവിശാരദനോട് ചോദിച്ചുനോക്കൂ. ഒരക്ഷരം മിണ്ടില്ല. ബന്ധമുണ്ടെന്ന് പറഞ്ഞുപരത്താനുള്ള ക്വട്ടേഷനാണ് അവര്‍ എടുത്തത്. കത്തിക്കഥ അങ്ങനെ വന്നതാണ്-ഒരു യഥാര്‍ഥ ക്വട്ടേഷന്‍ പണി .കത്തിക്കഥ കേട്ടതോടെ യുവമോര്‍ച്ചക്കാരും യൂത്തന്മാരും ആഞ്ഞുതുള്ളി. കോടിയേരി രാജിവയ്ക്കണമെന്ന്. കൊല്ലനെ തേടിയായി അടുത്ത യാത്ര. കാരി ഡിവൈഎഫ്ഐക്കാരനല്ല എന്നറിഞ്ഞതോടെ ഏഷ്യാനെറ്റിന് വര്‍ഗബോധം ഉണര്‍ന്നു. 'അമ്മയുടെ ക്യാന്‍സര്‍ രോഗത്തിന് ചികിത്സിക്കാനുള്ള പണം സമ്പാദിക്കാന്‍ കുറ്റമേറ്റവന്‍ കാരി'. സെന്റിമെന്റ്സ്. കാരി നിരപരാധി! കാരിയുടെ അമ്മയുടെ പേരിലുള്ള മൊബൈല്‍ ഫോണ്‍ കൊലപാതകം നടന്ന സ്ഥലത്തുനിന്ന് കിട്ടിയതെങ്ങനെ? അതും പൊലീസ് കൊണ്ടിട്ട് വണ്ടികയറ്റി ചതച്ചുകളഞ്ഞതാണെന്ന ക്വട്ടേഷന്‍ കഥ ഉടനെ വരുമായിരിക്കും.മൊബൈല്‍ തുമ്പില്‍ നിന്നാണ് അന്വേഷണം കാരിയില്‍ എത്തിയതെന്ന് റിപ്പോര്‍ട്ട് ആദ്യമായി നല്‍കിയത് ഐപ്പ് വള്ളിക്കാടന്‍ എന്ന ഏഷ്യാനെറ്റ് റിപ്പോര്‍ട്ടറാണ്. വാര്‍ത്ത വിഴുങ്ങാന്‍ മര്‍ഡോക്കിന് സേവകന്മാരെ കിട്ടാനാണോ പഞ്ഞം. .മയക്കുമരുന്ന് കേസില്‍ ജയിലില്‍ കിടന്ന, ഗുണ്ടകളുമായി ചങ്ങാത്തമുള്ള, മറ്റുപല സദ്ഗുണങ്ങളുമുണ്ട് എന്ന് പറയപ്പെടുന്ന ഒരു ബ്ളേഡ് കമ്പനിക്കാരനെപ്പറ്റി ഒരു ദുരൂഹതയും ആരും ഉയര്‍ത്താന്‍ പാടില്ല-അത് മാധ്യമപ്രവര്‍ത്തനത്തിനുനേരെയുള്ള കടന്നാക്രമണമാകും. അക്കാര്യത്തില്‍ അന്വേഷണാത്മകത തീരെ വേണ്ട. അന്വേഷിച്ചാല്‍ വിപണനസാധ്യതയും എരിവും പുളിയും ഉള്ള കഥകള്‍ കിട്ടുമെന്നത് മാധ്യമശത്രുക്കളുടെ കുപ്രചാരണമാണ്. അന്വേഷണം പോളിലേക്ക് തിരിയരുത്.മുത്തൂറ്റ് ഗ്രൂപ്പിന് സിപിഎം ബന്ധമില്ല; യുഡിഎഫ് ബന്ധുത്വമുണ്ട്. പരസ്യം തരുന്നത് മുത്തൂറ്റുകാരാണ്-സിപിഎമ്മല്ല. പണ്ട് പോളിന്റെ മയക്കുമരുന്ന് വാര്‍ത്ത മുക്കിയപ്പോള്‍ അനുഭവമുള്ളതാണ്. ഇനിയും ചോദിച്ചാല്‍ ഇനിയും കിട്ടും. ബാങ്കിലെ കടം വീട്ടാനും വക കാണും. പൊന്‍മുട്ടയിടുന്ന താറാവിനെ കൊല്ലാമോ-മുത്തൂറ്റിനെ പിണക്കാമോ? ആയതിനാല്‍ നമുക്ക് കോടിയേരി-പിണറായി ദുരൂഹത ആഘോഷിക്കാം. പിണറായി പത്രസമ്മേളനം നടത്തിയത് കോടിയേരിക്ക് വേലവയ്ക്കാന്‍ എന്ന് സിദ്ധാന്തിക്കാം. കൂട്ടത്തില്‍ തോമസ് ഐസക് എഴുതാന്‍ പോകുന്ന പുസ്തകത്തിന്റെ പ്രചാരം കൂട്ടാനാണ് സിപിഎം പ്രതികരിച്ചതെന്നും പറഞ്ഞുവയ്ക്കാം.മുത്തൂറ്റ്-മാധ്യമബന്ധം, മുത്തൂറ്റ്-ഉമ്മന്‍ചാണ്ടി ബന്ധം തുടങ്ങിയ സെന്‍സേഷണല്‍ സംഗതികളിലേക്കുള്ള വാതിലുകള്‍ ആരും തുറക്കരുതേ. അഥവാ തുറന്നാല്‍ ഞങ്ങള്‍ പത്രപ്രവര്‍ത്തക യൂണിയന്‍ പ്രസിഡന്റിനെ തന്നെ ചാവേറാക്കിക്കളയും. ഇത് ഒരു ഭീഷണിയായി ആരും കാണരുത്. പത്രപ്രവര്‍ത്തകര്‍ പള്ളയ്ക്കിട്ട് കുത്തിയാലും അത് മാധ്യമസ്വാതന്ത്ര്യത്തിന്റെ പ്രശ്നം മാത്രം. പ്രതിഷേധിക്കാനും പ്രസ്താവന ഇറക്കാനും എതിര്‍ പ്രസ്താവനകള്‍ മുക്കാനും സ്വാതന്ത്ര്യമുള്ളവരാണല്ലോ ഞങ്ങള്‍.

Do i love you????

One day i caught myself smiling for no reason,then i realize i was thinking of you.......
As I look into my married life as far as I can see,I can see nothing except you being with me.I knw nowadays u are in all of my dreams whether I'm awake or asleep,My "feelings"for you is not going anywhere cause it's way to deep.Do i love u????i dnt know..There is nothing I can do to make it go away,and my defending mechanisms are become weak day by day..I'm afraid in love with you and it's here to stay.The "feelings" I have, I cant carry anymore i think,I don't want anybody else and I hope everything will be good for me.If I can't have you ,i dnt say I would die alone n all ,but i can honestly say u make me happy n there is a special place place in my heart just for u. The day you becm mine ll 'b the happiest day of my life .No one could ever make me feel the way I did with you,The thing i feel with you is something totally new.coz i dnt hav any igos to talk to you.and most of the times we are lyk two kids they dnt have polluted mind. I want you to come into my life,not as a friend but as my everything.I want to be your lover and your best friend,and your soul mate.I want to grow old with you until the very end.I dream in the future you'll call and say I am the one,who can sweep off all ur sorrows and wounds and love you that noone can do in this world .I pray that someday my dreams will come true,This dream I have everyday because I'm in Love with you!I hope the god will do at least this favour for me..

Hearty Wishes for Vibin

Dear Vibin,

May your wedding be filled With everything that’s wonderfulA joyous, beautiful beginningOf a married lifeFilled with endless happinessAnd endless love.
For all of our friends,

Congratulations and best wishes From Me.........................................

ഇടയന്മാര്‍ ലേഖനം എഴുതുമ്പോള്‍ ...

"നീ മാലാഖമാരുടെ ഭാഷയില്‍ സംസാരിക്കുകയും നിന്നില്‍ മനുഷ്യസ്നേഹം ഇല്ലാതിരിക്കുകയും ചെയ്‌താല്‍ നീ മുഴങ്ങുന്ന ചെങ്ങിലയോ ചിലമ്പുന്ന ഇളതാലമോ ആയിരിക്കും."(വിശുദ്ധ പൗലോസ്‌ കൊരിന്ത്യര്‍കെഴുതിയ ലേഖനം)

അമ്പതു വര്‍ഷങ്ങള്‍ക്കു ശേഷം കേരളത്തിലെ ക്രിസ്ത്യന്‍ സഭകള്‍ പ്രത്യേകിച്ച് റോമന്‍ കത്തോലിക സഭ "വിമോചന സമരം റീ ലോടെഡ്" എന്ന പൂഴി കടങാന്‍കേരള സര്‍കാരിനെ വീഴ്ത്താന്‍ ഉപയോഗിക്കും എന്ന ഭീഷണി ഇപ്പോള്‍ നിലനില്‍ക്കുന്നുണ്ടല്ലോ.ഇഷ്ടമില്ലാത്തച്ചി തൊട്ടതെല്ലാം കുറ്റം എന്ന് പറയുന്ന പോലെ കാതോലിക സഭയുടെ കാശുള്ളവന്‍ കത്തോലിക എന്ന പ്രഖ്യാപിത നിലപടിനോടും എതിരായി നിന്നതുകൊണ്ട് മെത്രാന്‍ മാരുടെ നീതി ബോധവും ജനാധിപത്യ ബോധവും ഈ വൈകിയ വേളയില്‍ എങ്കിലും സടകുടഞ്ഞു എഴുന്നെട്ടല്ലോ ....സന്തോഷം.സ്വന്തം കണ്ണിലെ തടി കഷണം എടുത്തു കളയാതെ കാമ്മയൂനിസ്ടുകാരുടെ കണ്ണിലെ ഈര്കില്‍ കഷണം എടുത്തു കളയാന്‍ തുനിഞ്ഞിറങ്ങിയിരിക്കുന്ന ഈ പാവപ്പെട്ട ഇടയന്മാരോട് പൊറുക്കേണമേ. ഒന്നാം വിമോചനസമരം എന്ന ജനാധിപത്യ വിരുദ്ധ സമരം നല്കിയ പാഠങ്ങളില്‍ നിന്നും നിങ്ങള്‍ ഇനിയും ഒന്നും പഠിച്ചില്ല എന്നറിയുമ്പോള്‍ സങ്കടം ഉണ്ട് എന്റെ പ്രിയപ്പെട്ട പിതാക്കന്മാരെ
പാവപ്പെട്ടവന്‍ പട്ടിണി കിടന്നു മരിച്ചാലും എന്തിന് മോശയ്ക്കു കിട്ടിയപത്തു കല്പനകള്‍ പമ്പര വിഡ്ഢിത്തരം എന്ന് പറഞ്ഞു എന്ന് പറഞ്ഞു കളിയാകിയാലും,Pഇതാവും,പുത്രനും പര്ശുധത്മാവും വെറും സങ്കല്‍പം മാത്രം ആണെന്ന് പറഞ്ഞു പരിഹസിച്ചാലും ബഹുമാനപ്പെട്ട പിതാക്കന്മാര്‍ പൊറുത്തുഎന്ന് വരും. എന്നാല്‍ പള്ളിയുടെ സമ്പത്തിന്റെ പത്തില്‍ ഒരു അംശത്തില്‍ സംശയം പ്രകടിപ്പിച്ചാല്‍,പള്ളിവക സ്കൂളിലും കോളേജിലും സാമൂഹ്യ നീതി ഉറപ്പു വരുത്തണം എന്നും ഒക്കെ ആവശ്യപ്പെട്ടാല്‍ അതോടെ തീര്‍ന്നു.അട്ടഹാസവും ഇടയലേഖനവും കോപ്പും കൊടച്ചക്ക്രവുമായി മെത്രാന്മാരും പരിവാരങ്ങളും യുദ്ധത്തിന്നു വരും .അവിടെ പിതാവും പുത്രനും പരിശുധത്മാവും എന്ന വിശുദ്ധ സങ്കല്‍പം ഇല്ല.പകരം പള്ളിയുടെ സ്വകാര്യ സ്വത്തു എന്ന പരിശുദ്ധ ദൈവം മാത്രമേയുള്ളൂ. അതിന് വേണ്ടി ,ആ അവകാശം ആരെ ബലി കൊടുത്തായാലും ഏത് ദൈവത്തെയും ഏത് പുന്യലനെയും എത്ര തവണ തള്ളി പറഞ്ഞിട്ടനെന്കിലും സ്ഥാപിച്ചു കിട്ടാന്‍ അഭിവന്ദ്യ പിതാക്കാന്‍മാര്‍ ഏത് അറ്റം വരെ വേണമെങ്കിലും പോകും.
യേശുവിന്റെ ചിത്രവും കുരിശും വച്ചു പലിശക്ക് കടം കൊടുന്നവന്റെ നിലവാരത്തിലേക്ക് ഇന്നു നിങ്ങളും താന് പോയിരിക്കുന്നു.എന്ത് വഴിയില്‍ കൂടിയും പണം ഉണ്ടാക്കണം ,അതാണ് സമുദായത്തിന്റെ നിലനില്പിനെക്കളും,സഭയുടെ സല്പ്പെരിനെക്കളും
വലുതെന്ന ചിന്തയാണ് കൊല്ലപളിശക്കാരന്റെ മനസോടെ ജനാധിപത്യ രീതിയില്‍ തെരഞ്ഞെടുക്കപ്പെട ഒരു സര്‍കാരിനെതിരെ പള്ളിയില്‍ ഇടയ ലേഖനം വായിക്കാന്‍ നിങ്ങളെ പ്രേരിപ്പിക്കുന്നത് .
ക്രൈസ്തവ സഭകളുടെ വിദ്യാഭാസ കച്ചവട സ്ഥാപനങ്ങളില്‍ ഇടപെട്ടാല്‍ കയ്യും കെട്ടി നോക്കി ഇരിക്കില്ലെന്നും ഒരു വിമോചന സമരത്തിനും കൂടി ഉള്ള സാദ്ധ്യതകള്‍ ഇപ്പോഴും കേരളത്തില്‍ ഉണ്ട് എന്നും ആവേശ ഭരിതന്‍ ആയി പ്രഖ്യാപിച്ച മാര്‍ ആന്‍ഡ്രൂ താഴത്ത് പിതാവേ കൂട്ടത്തില്‍ പെട്ട ഒരു പാവം കന്യാസ്ത്രീ ദാരുണമായി കൊല്ലപ്പെട്ടിട്ട് പതിനാറു വര്ഷം കഴിഞ്ഞിട്ടും അതിന്റെ പ്രതികളെ കണ്ടു പിടിക്കണം എന്നാവശ്യപ്പെട്ടു കുഞ്ഞാടുകളുടെ കണ്ണില്‍ പൊടി ഇടാന്‍ എങ്കിലും മരുന്നിനൊരു ഇടയല ലേഖനം വായിക്കാന്‍ നിങ്ങള്ക്ക് തോന്നിയില്ലല്ലോ.ഒരു പ്രതിഷേധ കൊടുങ്കാറ്റും നടത്താന്‍ നിങ്ങള്ക്ക് തോന്നിയില്ലല്ലോ.നിങ്ങളാണ് നസറായനായ യേശുവിന്റെ യഥാര്ത്ഥ പിന്തുടര്‍ച്ചക്കാര്‍.
ഇന്ത്യന്‍ ഭരനഖടനയില്‍ എഴുതപ്പെട്ടിരിക്കുന്ന ന്യൂനപക്ഷ അവകാശങ്ങല്‍ക്കുപരിയായി സാമാന്യ നീതി എന്നത് ഒരു വശം കൂടി ഉണ്ടെന്നു എന്തെ നിങ്ങള്ക്ക് തിരിച്ചറിയാന്‍ കഴിയുന്നില്ല???ന്യൂനപക്ഷ അവകാശങ്ങളുടെ മറവില്‍ കുമിഞ്ഞു കൂടുന്ന സമ്പത്തിന്റെ പളപളപ്പില്‍ മയങ്ങി തങ്ങള്‍ക്കു വേണ്ടി ജയ് വിളിക്കാനും അങ്കമാലിയിലെ പോലെ നേര്ച്ച കോഴി ആകാനും ഇനിയും പാവപ്പെട്ട കുഞ്ഞാടുകളെ കിട്ടും എന്ന് കരുതുന്നു എങ്കില്‍ അത് നടക്കില്ല എന്ന് അതിന് വേണ്ടി ഊറ്റം കൊല്ലുന്നവരോട് ലത്തീന്‍ സമുദായവും മത്സ്യ തൊഴിലാളികളും പ്രഖ്യാപിച്ചു കഴിഞ്ഞു .
കഴിഞ്ഞു പോയ ഒരു വിമോചന സമരത്തിന്റെ പിന്നിലെ "ഹിഡന്‍ അജണ്ടകളെ പറ്റിയും അതിലെ നേരികെടുകളെ പറ്റിയും ഒക്കെ ഭൂത വര്‍ത്തമാന കേരളങ്ങള്‍ ഒരു പാടു ചര്ച്ച ചെയ്തതാണ്.ഫാദര്‍ വടക്കന്‍ തന്നെ ഒരിക്കല്‍ അതിനെപറ്റികുംബസരിക്കുകയുണ്ടായി.അതിന്റെ അന്തരീഷം എന്തുതന്നെ ആയിരുന്നാലും ആ സാഹചര്യത്തില്‍ ആണോ വര്‍ത്തമാന കേരളം എന്ന് സംഖടിത ശക്തിയുടെ പേരില്‍ ഊറ്റം കൊള്ളുന്ന അഭിവന്ദ്യ പിതാക്കാന്‍ മാര്‍ ചിന്തിക്കണം.എല്‍ ഡി എഫ്‌ സര്‍ക്കാര്‍ സഭയോട് നീതികേട്‌ കാണിച്ചു എന്ന് കരുതുന്ടെന്കില്‍ അതിനെ നേരിടാന്‍ നിയമപരംമായ വഴികള്‍ ധാരാളം ഉണ്ട്.അല്ലാതെ മത ഭക്തിയുടെയും ദൈവ വിശ്വാസത്തിന്റെയും വളക്കൂറുള്ള മനസുള്ള പാവപ്പെട്ട കുഞ്ഞാടുകളെ ഇടയലെഖനങ്ങളിലൂടെ തെറ്റിദ്ധരിപ്പിച്ചു റോഡില്‍ ഇറക്കി രണ്ടാം വിമോചന സമരത്തിന്‌ കോപ്പ് കൂട്ടുകയല്ല വേണ്ടത്.
സത്യത്തിനും നീതിക്കും വിശ്വാസത്തിനും അപ്പുറം കൊള്ള ലാഭത്തിന്റെ കണക്കാണ് വലുത് എന്നത് പിതാക്കന്മാരെ എവിടെ കൊണ്ടു ചെന്നെത്തിക്കും എന്ന് ഇന്നു സാക്ഷാല്‍ മാര്‍പാപ്പക്ക്പോലും പറയാന്‍ കഴിയും എന്ന് തോന്നുന്നില്ല.വിശ്വാസത്തിന്റെ പേരിലും സ്വത്തിന്റെ പേരിലും അധികാരത്തിന്റെ പേരിലും തമ്മില്‍ തല്ലിതല കീറുന്ന ഒരു പാടു സഭകള്‍ ഉള്ള നാടാണ് കേരളം.സ്വന്തം നാടിന്റെ വേണ്ട സ്വന്തം സമുദായത്തിലെ പട്ടിണി പാവങ്ങളെ ഉദ്ധരിക്കാന്‍ മിനക്കെടാതെ രണ്ടാം വിമോചനസമരത്തിന് കോപ്പ് കൂട്ടുന്ന പിതാവിനെ അപകടകരമായ മാനസികരോഗം ബാധിച്ചു എന്ന് കരുതേണ്ടിയിരിക്കുന്നു.തങ്ങളുടെ പ്രശ്നങ്ങള്‍ക്ക് പോംവഴികള്‍ ധാരാളം ഉണ്ടെന്നിരികെ നമ്മുടെ സമൂഹത്തിനെ അപകടകരമായ ഒരു സ്ഥിതി വിശേഷതിലേക്ക് കൊണ്ടു ചെന്നെത്തിക്കുന്ന ഇത്തരം സാമുദായിക അധ്യക്ഷന്മാരെ നാം കൂച്ച് വിലങ്ങിട്ടു നിര്‍ത്തേണ്ടിയിരിക്കുന്നു.പാബ്ലോ നെരൂദ പറയുകയുണ്ടായി മനുഷ്യന് സുഖ ജീവിതത്തിനുള്ള മറകള്‍ ആണ് മതങ്ങള്‍ എന്ന്.അത് ശെരി വയ്ക്കുന്നതാണ് ഇപ്പോള്‍ നമ്മുടെ നാട്ടില്‍ നടക്കുന്നതും............

I' m scarred

I 'm alone in the flat since Thursday coz my uncle is in Canada. Its been a long time since I have been alone all by myself. The last time i stayed alone was almost two years back when I was in kuwait and did not have Pious for a month and joby was doing night shift. Before that I was left alone at home while my family went for a marriage . I did not go because I had my exams during those days.
So from the last time I was all my myself and today, it’s been a long time. Too long to adjust to being alone. It can get lonely sometimes. Feeling lonely even with people around you is a different matter. I feel that many times. I have felt that since I was a kid and I still feel it mostly.

Living alone gives you a sense of being independent and being answerable to no one but then it comes with its own sense of responsibilities. have to be cautious about everything, the rooms have to be clean, the food has to be cooked, and a lot more things. I have been doing that even when i ws in india,but now it seems different somehow. I was not told that time and I am not told now. Yesterday, I spent almost 3 hours washing and cleaning the kitchen and bathrooms. It was too much of an effort but I guess the place has to be maintained to keep up to a level where it requires minimum efforts to clean up.
When I stayed alone two years back, I had a big 2 bedroom apartment all to myself,joby and pious. I stayed in this big double bed bedroom and that was the time I did not even have a laptop . I only had the TELEVISION and the DVD player which i got from vibin to spend my time. At that time i had many friends and many flats where i can vist frequently.But here things are quite different and having a little friends.i dnt know why m being hesitate to make friends.but i knw one thing this is not my tenure.Recently i becm more close to a Girl who is familiar to me since 2008 may.now she started to act like my younger sister and m enjoying that affection which she showing to me.She declared herself as my younger sister.She z making me smile by some of her comments n i become relax wen i talk to her.her b'day is on jun 11th.what shud i gv to her ??definitely i will send a mail,and i plan to call her on 11th morning.

Day before yesterday I found myself waking in the middle of the night and walking across the house to find out if I had an intruder in the house. What greeted me was the eerie silence of the house. I would end up keeping myself awake and then watching TV in the middle of the night. Watching TV in the middle of the night at any volume without disturbing anyone is one of the advantages of staying alone. While there is nothing to watch on television at 2:00 AM in the night is a major disadvantage of staying awake at such a late hour. So I would spend time watching the “animal palnet or watch the news on Asianet or CNN till my eyes became heavy with sleep again.
Yesterday I woke up in the middle of the night to hear strange noises only to realize later that it was my Cell phone making the noise. I need to control my mind.
I currently live in a big apartment. My flat is at the fifteenth floor while there are still 3 floors above me. The house can get really quite and a small squeak is amplified to become a noise. When uncle was here, i argued him for some political issues, preparing food by listening his nostaligias and sharing my experiences and my dreams about my future wife(he was teasing me when i became talkative about the girl of my dreams).But now when I hear noises of someone moving, I freeze. Even if someone moves in the neighboring flat, it feels like somebody is moving in our house. I close my room door and dare not move out to the darkness of living room. Call me scarred or paranoid or coward, but i was not.I was a person who seen many horror movies and practiced the aujo board to talk to the Spirits.Now iam afraid to move alone in a big house.

I have become very clever, sometimes. Living alone sometimes has its advantage too. When I was alone at my home , my neighbors and cousins were kind enough to send me food everyday. Sometimes I had so much food that some of it was wasted but the gesture was always good for me. Now here when I am alone, I have already got two invitations for dinner tonight. But i dint go. Coz i dint feel lyk.Now i imagine a godess is with me ,for keeping me away from all unnecessary emotional shackles and to love me that noone can in this world.Let me make my little heaven in her lap.............

അങ്ങനെ പതിനഞ്ചാം ലോക്സഭയിലേക്കുള്ള തിരഞ്ഞെടുപ്പ് മഹാമഹവും കഴിഞ്ഞു. എക്സിറ്റ്‌ പോളന്മാര്‍ പ്രവചിച്ചപോലെ തന്നെ സംഭവിച്ചു. ഞങ്ങള്‍ കാമ്മുനിസ്റ്റ്‌ പരക്രമികള്‍ മൂക്കും കുത്തി നിലത്തു. എങ്കിലും എന്റെ കാരാട്ട്‌ സഖാവെ എന്തൊക്കെ ബഹളങ്ങള്‍ ആയിരുന്നു? മലപ്പുറം കത്തി,മെഷീന്‍ ഗണ്‍, മൂന്നാം മുന്നണി,ഒലക്കേടെ മൂട്.അവസാനം പവനായി ശവം ആയി.പ്രധാനമന്ത്രി കുപ്പായം പലര്‍ക്കും തയിപ്പിച്ചു കൊടുത്തതും വെറുതെ.എല്ലാം വെള്ളത്തില്‍ വരച്ച വര പോലെ ആയി.മൂന്നാം മുന്നണി അധികാരത്തില്‍ വരുന്നതും കോഴിക് മുല വരുന്നതും ഒരു പോലെ ആണെന്നരിയവുന്നഇന്ത്യയിലെ "ഏക്‌ ദിന്‍ ക സുല്‍താന്‍" അഥവാ പൊതുജനം എന്നാ കഴുത നമ്മളെ കൈക്കില കൂടാതെ ദൂരെ എറിഞ്ഞു.പ്രിയപ്പെട്ട വായനാക്കാരെ ഇത്രയും വായിച്ചപ്പോള്‍ നിങ്ങള്ക്ക് തോന്നി കാണും ഞാന്‍ ഒരു വലതു പക്ഷ മൂരാച്ചി ആണെന്ന്.നെവെര്‍....സിപിഎം എന്നാ പാര്‍ടിക്കുവേണ്ടി ഒരു പാട്‌ കഷം കുലുക്കി സിന്ദാബാദ്‌ വിളിച്ചിട്ടുള്ള ഒരു ദേഹം ആണ് ഞാന്‍ .ഇന്ന് ആ മഹാ പ്രസ്ഥാനത്തിന്റെ വഴി പിഴച്ച പോക്ക് കാണുമ്പോള്‍ മനസ് നോവുന്ന ആയിരകണക്കിന് ആളുകളില്‍ ഒരുവന്‍.മനസ് കൊണ്ടും ശരീരം കൊണ്ടും ബുദ്ധി കൊണ്ടും .ചിന്ത കൊണ്ടും ഞാന്‍ ഒരു കമ്മ്യൂണിസ്റ്റ്‌ ആണെന്ന് അഭിമാനത്തോടെ പറയാവുന്ന ഒരുവന്‍. പക്ഷെ ഇന്ന് ഞാന്‍ ലജ്ജിക്കുന്നു,ആ നേതാക്കന്മാര്‍ക്ക് വേണ്ടി ,പ്രത്യേകിച്ച് "പിണങ്ങാറായി" സഖാവിനു വേണ്ടി ജയ്‌ വിളിച്ചതിനും പിണങ്ങാറായി സഖാവിനെ ന്യായീകരിച്ചതിനും.പ്രിയപ്പെട്ട പിണറായി സഖാവെ നിങ്ങളുടെ ജാഥയുടെ സമാപന സമ്മേളത്തില്‍ കിരീടവും പൂമാലയും എട്ടു വാങ്ങുമ്പോള്‍ നിങ്ങള്‍ ഓര്‍ത്തില്ലേ വ്യക്തി പൂജ എന്നത് ഒരു പ്രസ്ഥാനത്തിന്റെ നാശത്തിലേക്ക് മാത്രമേ വഴി വെക്കൂ എന്ന്? നിങ്ങളുടെ തമ്മില്‍ തല്ലില്‍ മനം നൊന്തു പ്രസ്ഥാനം വിട്ടു പോയ ആത്മര്തതയുള്ള പ്രവര്‍ത്തകരെ വര്‍ഗ വന്ച്ചകര്‍ എന്ന് വിളിക്കുമ്പോള്‍ നിങ്ങള്‍ ഓര്‍ത്തില്ലേ പ്രസ്ഥാനത്തിന്റെ നട്ടെല്ല് ആണ് കഷയിച്ചു കൊണ്ടിരിക്കുന്നത് എന്ന്? തെറ്റ് പറ്റാത്ത മനുഷ്യര്‍ ഇല്ല.പക്ഷെ തെറ്റുകളില്‍ നിന്ന് തെറ്റുകളിലെക്കാന് നിങ്ങള്‍ പോകുന്നത് എന്ന് അധികാരത്തിന്റെയും തന്‍ പ്രമനിത്‌ാതിന്റെയും തിമിരം ബാധിച്ച നിങ്ങളുടെ കണ്ണുകള്‍ക്ക്‌ തിരിച്ചറിയാന്‍ കഴിയാതെ പോയല്ലോ.ആ കസേരക്ക് അതിന്റേതായ അന്തസുണ്ട്.നിങ്ങളുടെ ഓരോ പ്രവര്‍ത്തിയും ആ കസേരയുടെ അന്തസ് കളഞു എന്ന് എന്തെ നിങ്ങള്‍ മനസിലാക്കാതെ?? നിങ്ങള്‍ കരുതുന്നുവോ ആ കസേര ഒരു ബാര്‍ബറുടെ കസേര പോലെ ഇതു ആസനത്തെയും വഹിക്കാന്‍ മാത്രം തരാം താന്നതനെന്നു? അല്ല സഖാവെ.ഒരിക്കല്‍ നിങ്ങളോട് ഉണ്ടായിരുന്ന എല്ലാ ബഹുമാനത്തോടെയും പറയട്ടെ നിങ്ങള്‍ ആ കസേരയുടെ അന്തസ് കളഞ്ഞു കുളിച്ചു. നിങ്ങള്‍ നിങ്ങളുടെ വില ഇല്ലാതാക്കി. നിങ്ങള്‍ നമ്മുടെ പ്രസ്ഥാനത്തിന്റെ അന്തസ് കളഞ്ഞു കുളിച്ചു. അത് കൊണ്ടാണ് സഖാവെ പാര്‍ടി തോല്‍ക്കുമ്പോള്‍ ചിലര്‍ക്ക് വഞ്ചനയുടെയും ഒടുക്കതെയും ഒക്കെ ചിരി ചിരിക്കാന്‍ തോന്നുന്നത്."കഷ്ട കാലേ കൌപീന കോയെ സര്‍പ്പ രൂപേണ ദമ്ശിതെ " എന്നാ ശ്ലോകം പോലെ പിഡിപി ബന്ധം കൂടി ആയപ്പോ പണ്ടേ ദുര്‍ബല ഇപ്പൊ ഗര്‍ഭിണി കൂടി ആയ എന്നാ അവസ്ഥയില്‍ കാര്യങ്ങള്‍ എത്തി.നിങ്ങള്ക്ക് ലജ്ജ തോന്നിയില്ലേ സഖാവെ പ്രായോഗിക രാഷ്ട്രീയത്തിന്റെ പേര് പറഞ്ഞ ആ അവിഹിത ബന്ധം ഉണ്ടാക്കാന്‍? നിങ്ങള്ക്ക് ലജ്ജ തോന്നിയില്ലേ സഖാവെ രാമന്‍ പിള്ളയെ കൂടെ കൂട്ടാന്‍..ഇനിയും വൈകിയിട്ടില്ല സഖാവെ നമുക്ക് മുന്നില്‍ ശോഭനം ആയ ഭാവിയുണ്ട് ജനങ്ങളുടെ കൂടെ നില്‍ക്കുകയാണെങ്കില്‍ മാത്രം.ഫാരിസ്‌ അബൂബകര്മാരും സാന്റിയാഗോ മാര്ടിന്മാരും നമ്മുടെ പാതയില്‍ നമ്മളെ പ്രലോഭിപ്പിക്കാന്‍ പാപത്തിന്റെ വിലക്കപ്പെട്ട കണിയുമായി ഉണ്ടാകും. അത് അവഗണിച്ച് കൊണ്ട നമുക്ക് മുന്നേറാം ഒരു നല്ല ലോകത്തിനായി തെറ്റുകള്‍ തിരുത്തി കൊണ്ട അധക്രിതന്റെയും അവഗണിക്കപെട്ടവന്റെയും ചുമടുതാങ്ങുന്നവന്റെയും കൂടെ,അവന്റെ കണ്ണുനീര്‍ ഒപ്പാന്‍ ആത്മാര്‍ഥമായി പരിശ്രമിച്ചുകൊണ്ട്...പ്രിയപ്പെട്ട സഖാവെ ഇത്രയും വായിച്ചപ്പോള്‍ നിങ്ങള്ക്ക് തോന്നിയോ മാറ്റത്തിന്റെ സൂര്യന്‍ മധ്യാഹ്നത്തില്‍ എത്തിയിട്ടും വരട്ടു തത്‌ാവാദത്തിന്റെ കരിബടക്കെട്ടില്‍ കൂര്‍ക്കം വലിച്ചു കിടന്നുറങ്ങുന്ന ഒരു പെറ്റി ബൂര്‍ഷ മൂരാച്ചി ആണ് ഞാന്‍ എന്ന്? അല്ല സഖാവെ ഒരിക്കലും അല്ല............

I am hurting

It feels like hope is gone. All my life I have had hope, through all the bad in my life. I knew the angels and saints and God were there but the last 1 year I have struggled and struggled. As I write this I want to cry. I need help I am so alone. this lonliness suffocating me.i m afraid i will loss my control .Will God help me?Since my birth i have the stories of hurts and crisis.i hope there is a light at the end. Or am I just that mistake that god has made? People say God doesnt make mistakes but maybe he did. I am hurting, sorry for taking everyones time.

Focus on the negative things in life

I’m sure you’ve heard people say that you shouldn’t focus too much on the negative things in life, but rather that you should focus on the positive things instead. Instead of looking at the negative side of things, they say, you should look at the positive side and try to appreciate that. Perhaps you are also someone who shares the same opinion. I however have a different opinion: We should focus on the negative things instead. And I’ll explain why.
Focusing on the positive things in life seems to be human nature. When I see people doing this, I don’t blame them at all. In fact, I can very much understand why they do this. Imagine if you didn’t focus on all those small positive things in life, where would you get the inspiration and energy to keep on living? Life is so full of problems and it’s not easy to be happy and optimistic. In fact, it is quite impossible to be happy in life when you realize certain things and when you want to be really honest to yourself.
So this just makes the need even bigger for people to focus on the positive things. Even if those positive things sometimes don’t exist, they try to make them up instead. Religion is a perfect example of this. It serves to give people something positive to think about in life, something to hold onto, something to give them hope for the future, something to give their lives a purpose, something to explain the unknown to them to make them feel like they are in control and know what’s going on. Imagine if there were no religions, how would most people think of life? How would most people be able to live life without the comfort that religion offers them?
Another example is death. For as long as humans exist, they have been trying to put a positive spin around death. Religion has also been a great help in doing this. Death is another case where people have tried to make things up around it to make it look like something positive. “Yes, it sucks to die, but look at the bright side, you’re going to heaven!” Nobody is fooling me with this. Death is something negative. Nothing can explain that away. I’ll never accept it “as a normal part of life.” The sooner people stop fooling themselves and believing in all kinds of explanations for it, the sooner we’ll be more effective at looking for ways to solve this problem.
When something bad happens, or someone struggles with bad results or outcomes, people always say “Well I know it sucks, but look at the bright side…”, or, “It could have been worse, look at the positive side…” etc. That just serves as comfort. It serves to take our eyes away from the problem and to have us focus on something positive. It serves to make us think good about the situation or about ourselves. It serves to fool us.
We shouldn’t focus on the positive things so much. Instead, we should focus a lot more on the negative things in life. Why? It’s quite simple: Because those are the things that require our attention. We want to get better, don’t we? The positive things are already good and probably more or less where we want them to be. We should use our energy to get the negative things where we want them to be. It is unproductive and not of much use to keep ourselves occupied with the positive things in life and allow ourselves to be blinded by those things. It just serves to paralyze us to some extent to address the real issues. The problem is that people willfully do this most of the time. People would rather fool themselves to feel good, instead of facing the problems.
I see it happening around me every day. And what this does is limit the speed at which things can get better in life. Afterall, as long as people keep focusing too much on the positive things, they don’t sufficiently realize the need and urgency to take on solving or improving the negative things. And this isn’t just about improving life in the broad sense, but it starts at home, at the workplace, on a personal level. Sometimes I see people putting too much emphasis on the things they have achieved so far and what they currently have, instead of putting the most emphasis on what they have not (yet) achieved and what they don’t (yet) have. I’m not saying that you shouldn’t give yourself a pat on the back when you achieve something, but you shouldn’t be blinded by it. Give yourself a pat on the back for a few minutes and then forget about it and see the things you haven’t yet achieved or the problems that still exist and do something about them.
The important thing is that you have to know what you want in life or in a given situation. And if you don’t have it yet, do everything you possibly can to get it. Don’t be afraid to admit to yourself that there are things you’ve lost or don’t yet have, but really want. Especially don’t do this to make yourself feel like you have (achieved) everything you want in order to feel happy about it. Don’t look at what you DO have and try to think about that in a positive way. It doesn’t benefit you in any real way, other than to give you comfort, and to try to make you feel satisfied.
Don’t fool yourself. Know what’s missing, what could be better and what’s wrong, and focus on those things! It will only make you a better person. Be honest to yourself and be realistic about your expectations.

You have the right to Vote

As a responsible citizen of this country, I have to use my valuable voting right, which is only a dream for one fourth of the people of this world..

So i think i must use this insignia for a prosperous India where we can live with peace, no discrimination,and offering social justice to all.(i know its a wildest dream..but still)

A few thoughts on what it means to be a voter and having your say in selecting the future leaders of this country..

The basic question.. Am I really going to vote? ..

Yes...i must be..

The present political situation in Kerala is predictable as ever. but by choosing the young blood and veterans LDF has a dominant role in the war field.. . For a young generation voter like me what does this really mean. ???.

Some people saying that the political happenings in Kerala would always make a great movie script..probably it could go on to become a blockbuster..There is enough amount of violence, comedy, conspiracy, tragedy, heated dialogues and as always, some unexpected twists and turns may i ask a question to such people???

As a responsible Indian citizen Do you fulfil your duties to your country?

Do you have any kind of commitment to our country???

No right?????????????

We always blame our judiciary,bureaucracy and other government establishments for their inefficiency ,redtapism etc etc..

when we criticising our country ,we deliberately ignore one thing....

with this same government mechanism we bcm the fastest growing country of the world....

by this same out dated judiciary we can make sure social justice in our country..

by this same corrupted bureaucracy we can spend millions of rupees for our dream projects

so please think a while.......

before you criticise our country and our establishments..

So the basic question still remains unanswered..

How many of us can select a right candidate?

i thnk we need to give preference to young blood

so think a while....

who given priority to our youngsters???

only LDF right?????????

So for a Smart kerala

for a secular kerala

use your insignia

and elect LDF candidates

and be a part of LDF triumph.....

Learn Something from anyone

lot of people seem to admit to the fact that you can learn something from anyone. But in my case, i don’t behave accordingly. It is nice to admit to this fact, but do you also realize what it really means and what it takes to be able to learn from anyone? It seems that a lot of people don’t know this(including me).
To be able to learn something from anyone or anything means that you first have to be open to alternative information and possibilities. You can’t pretend that you already know everything about a subject or situation. You can’t simply brush off opinions or information coming from someone without making sure that you’ve carefully looked at it. You will have to open yourself up to all of the information coming towards you, look at it and carefully evaluate it against anything you think you know about the subject.
And this is not an easy thing to do because often it can take a lot of time. And apart from time and willingness to be open to the information, there are other difficulties as well. One of them is objectivity. It is not easy to be objective when you consider alternative information. And this can be because of various reasons. One of them is that looking at alternative information could mean that you can come to the conclusion that the information is correct, and that what you knew is wrong and that you will have to admit to this. And people don’t like to admit that they are wrong(Me too(. If it was in a discussion or argument, it would mean losing the discussion or argument. And people don’t like this. There is ofcourse nothing wrong with not liking it, but you should not take the wrong decision because of that, namely lying and refusing to admit that you are wrong.
Another reason is that people may have certain prejudice towards something or someone. For example, they may hear someone who is considered to be a bad person, or someone they just don’t like, talk about something and without giving it some more thought, just automatically dismiss everything that person may have to say. Which ofcourse is a foolish thing to do, because that person, even if it is just for once, might be saying something good. Or they may think that the person giving their opinion on something can’t possibly be taken seriously because he has no experience, is too young, doesn’t have a degree in the subject, etc. In such a case, a teacher would never be able to learn from his students, and one could say that Hitler never did anything that we might positively learn from. Anyone has good and bad qualities, and anyone can be right or wrong. Nobody is perfect. The skill is the ability to be able to honestly identify the good things in a person, learn from those things and use them to your advantage.
Another reason can also be that when people would have to admit that alternative information is correct, this means that they would have to accept it, which could have an impact on a lot of other things that may affect their worldview and their lives. The implications can be so outrageous compared to what they are used to, or it can cause so many inconveniences, that their mind simply closes up to the possibilities the alternative information suggests, and as a result they can’t objectively evaluate it. In such a case it is much more convenient to just dismiss the information, pretend it doesn’t exist or simply deny that it is correct.
And there can be many other reasons still. I think that one of the most important things you can learn to do in life, is to be able to objectively evaluate an opinion, or information in general and once you’ve reached a conclusion, honestly act upon it. I don’t think I can ever completely describe the huge benefits that this gives you. Once you are able to do this, you can identify and take the good things around you from anything and anyone, learn from them and use them to your advantage (this includes finding out that you were wrong), while you eliminate or improve the bad things. It only makes you a better, smarter and stronger person.
For example, there may be someone you really don’t like. Perhaps you even hate that person. To be able to objectively evaluate something this person says that is contrary to your beliefs, and to be able to honestly admit that he or she is right, and that you were wrong is very powerful. Simply because not everyone can do this, and when you can, this gives you a powerful advantage. You will be able to learn much more much quicker compared to everyone else, because, while they can’t, you are able to consider any and all sources and identify the good things and use them to your advantage. And because you are open to alternative information and possibilities from anywhere, you are more likely to discover where you are wrong, and are more likely to act upon it which in turn helps to improve yourself much quicker and much more than anyone else. And the beautiful thing about this is that this benefits not only you, but everyone else around you.
Just think about.

A Speech of Dr A P J Abdul Kalam

Why is the media here so negative?
Why are we in India so embarrassed to recognize our own strengths, our achievements? We are such a great nation. We have so many amazing success stories but we refuse to acknowledge them. Why?
We are the first in milk production . We are number one in Remote sensing satellites. We are the second largest producer of wheat. We are the second largest producer of rice. Look at Dr. Sudarshan , he has transferred the tribal village into a self-sustaining, self-driving unit.. There are millions of such achievements but our media is only obsessed in the bad news and failures and disasters. I was in Tel Aviv once and I was reading the Israeli newspaper. It was the day after a lot of attacks and bombardments and deaths had taken place. The Hamas had struck... But the front page of the newspaper had the picture of a Jewish gentleman who in five years had transformed his desert into an orchid and a granary. It was this inspiring picture that everyone woke up to. The gory details of killings, bombardments, deaths, were inside in the newspaper, buried among other news.
In India we only read about death, sickness, terrorism, crime. Why are we so NEGATIVE? Another question: Why are we, as a nation so obsessed with foreign things? We want foreign T. Vs, we want foreign shirts. We want foreign technology. Why this obsession with everything imported. Do we not realize that self-respect comes with self-reliance? I was in Hyderabad giving this lecture, when a 14 year old girl asked me for my autograph. I asked her what her goal in life is. She replied: I want to live in a developed India . For her, you and I will have to build this developed India . You must proclaim. India is not an under-developed nation; it is a highly developed nation. Do you have 10 minutes? Allow me to come back with a vengeance.
Got 10 minutes for your country? If yes, then read; otherwise, choice is yours. YOU say that our government is inefficient. YOU say that our laws are too old. YOU say that the municipality does not pick up the garbage. YOU say that the phones don't work, the railways are a joke, The airline is the worst in the world, mails never reach their destination. YOU say that our country has been fed to the dogs and is the absolute pits.
YOU say, say and say. What do YOU do about it? Take a person on his way to Singapore .. Give him a name - YOURS. Give him a face - YOURS. YOU walk out of the airport and you are at your International best. In Singapore you don't throw cigarette butts on the roads or eat in the stores. YOU are as proud of their Underground links as they are. You pay $5 (approx. Rs. 60) to drive through Orchard Road (equivalent of Mahim Causeway or Pedder Road) between 5 PM and 8 PM. YOU come back to the parking lot to punch your parking ticket if you have
over stayed in a restaurant or a shopping mall irrespective of your status identity... In Singapore you don't say anything, DO YOU? YOU wouldn't dare to eat in public during Ramadan, in Dubai .. YOU would not dare to go out without your head covered in Jeddah . YOU would not dare to buy an employee of the telephone exchange in London at 10 pounds ( Rs.650) a month to, 'see to it that my STD and ISD calls are billed to someone else.'YOU would not dare to speed beyond 55 mph (88 km/h) in Washington and then tell the traffic cop, 'Jaanta hai main kaun hoon (Do you know who I am?). I am so and so's son. Take your two bucks and get lost.' YOU wouldn't chuck an empty coconut shell anywhere other than the garbage pail on the beaches in Australia and New Zealand . Why don't YOU spit Paan on the streets of Tokyo ? Why don't YOU use examination jockeys or buy fake certificates in Boston ??? We are still talking of the same YOU. YOU who can respect and conform to a foreign system in other countries but cannot in your own. You who will throw papers and cigarettes on the road the moment you touch Indian ground. If you can be an involved and appreciative citizen in an alien country, why cannot you be the same here in India ?
Once in an interview, the famous Ex-municipal commissioner of Bombay , Mr. Tinaikar , had a point to make. 'Rich people's dogs are walked on the streets to leave their affluent droppings all over the place,' he said. 'And then the same people turn around to criticize and blame the authorities for inefficiency and dirty pavements. What do they expect the officers to do? Go down with a broom every time their dog feels the pressure in his bowels? In America every dog owner has to clean up after his pet has done the job. Same in Japan .. Will the Indian citizen do that here?' He's right. We go to the polls to choose a government and after that forfeit all responsibility. We sit back wanting to be pampered and expect the government to do everything for us whilst our contribution is totally negative. We expect the government to clean up but we are not going to stop chucking garbage all over the place nor are we going to stop to pick a up a stray piece of paper and throw it in the bin. We expect the railways to provide clean bathrooms but we are not going to learn the proper use of bathrooms. We want Indian Airlines and Air India to provide the best of food and toiletries but we are not going to stop pilfering at the least opportunity. This applies even to the staff who is known not to pass on the service to the public. When it comes to burning social issues like those related to women, dowry, girl child! and others, we make loud drawing room protestations and continue to do the reverse at home.. Our excuse? 'It's the whole system which has to change, how will it matter if I alone forego my sons' rights to a dowry.' So who's going to change the system? What does a system consist of ? Very conveniently for us it consists of our neighbours, other households, other cities, other communities and the government. But definitely not me and YOU. When it comes to us actually making a positive contribution to the system we lock ourselves along with our families into a safe cocoon and look into the distance at countries far away and wait for a Mr.Clean to come along & work miracles for us with a majestic sweep of his hand or we leave the country and run away. Like lazy cowards hounded by our fears we run to America to bask in their glory and praise their system. When New Yorkbecomes insecure we run to England .. When England experiences unemployment, we take the next flight out to the Gulf. When the Gulf is war struck, we demand to be rescued and
brought home by the Indian government. Everybody is out to abuse and rape the country. Nobody thinks of feeding the system. Our conscience is mortgaged to money.
Dear Indians, The article is highly thought inductive, calls for a great deal of introspection and pricks one's conscience too..... I am echoing J. F.. Kennedy 's words to his fellow Americans to relate to Indians....
'ASK WHAT WE CAN DO FOR INDIA AND DO WHAT HAS TO BE DONE TO MAKE INDIA WHAT AMERICA AND OTHER WESTERN COUNTRIES ARE TODAY'
Lets do what India needs from us.
Thank you, Dr. Abdul Kalaam

Sri Lanka-Retired Hurt on 3/3

Can't Forgive them.........

Our revered Sri Lankan cricketers were attacked in Lahore, leaving our neighbours embarrassed, shocked and with our heads shaken in that impact.

My heart is sad today for Sri Lanka, the nation and its generosity at a time when no country would visit Pakistan. I salute your cricketers. I am ashamed. And I am sorry. I hope they will give the extreme level punishment to that barbarians.., but please accept at least one little apology from a Pakistani. Forget who did it or when or how , regardless of anything. I hope At least one Pakistani will apologize to them whole heartily..Why dont our neighbours learn from the past?? .

I just remembering that word from Rig Vega-"Ma Nishadha".

When being wrong.............

I absolutely hate being wrong. This probably comes as no surprise to you, and I’m sure most people would agree with me on this. However, unlike most people out there I am quick to admit to it when I am, or have been, wrong. In fact, I’m constantly looking for things that prove me wrong. I’m constantly challenging myself, everything I know and everything I believe in. I even try my best to help people prove to me that I’m wrong. This is the important difference between me and most people. I hate being wrong, but I like finding out about it.
Ithhing , there’s nothing wrong with not liking when you’re wrong, but you have to know how to deal with it. It shouldn’t make you take the wrong decision, namely to refuse to admit to it and not taking the steps to do something about it. Often people refuse to even consider the fact that they might be wrong, let alone admitting to it. Even though you may not like the fact that you might be wrong, you should be willing to take a look at it and be able to admit to it the moment you start to realize you’re wrong and take appropriate actions immediately. This benefits not only you, but everyone else around you. And most of the time the biggest benefits are for you, especially for the long term.
Just think about it, the sooner you can find out that you were wrong and the sooner you admit to it, the sooner you can start to learn from your mistakes and improve yourself and your situation. This is one of the most important reasons why I love finding out when I’m wrong and even prefer to know this as soon as possible. It’s why I keep myself open to any information, suggestions, remarks etc. from anyone and anywhere, so that I can challenge myself with it as soon as possible. When you’re able to do this the right way (you have to be able to be objectiveand hav nothng to lose), you improve and grow much faster as a person compared to people who can’t. Those who can’t, stick with bad ideas and assumptions much longer with all the disadvantages that come with that, often not only for themselves but sadly also for people around them.
There are many reasons why people can’t easily admit when they’re wrong or simply refuse to even consider it. Often it’s just ego or fear for the consequences. Admitting that you’re wrong might mean losing an argument, having to change your beliefs about something, far reaching changes in your life and even losing important things that you may have. So it might not be very easy to admit to being wrong, but the benefits of doing it are always greater because of the simple fact that if you continue on the wrong path, it will only continue to get worse because of the snowball effect it will have. If you continue to hold on to the wrong assumptions for example, every decision you make based on that will likely be wrong, and anything you do based on those decisions will likely also be wrong and on and on it goes.
So in summary: Absolutely hate being wrong, but for that reason, love finding out about it as soon as possible. The sooner you correct yourself, the sooner you can start to improve. And to be able to correct yourself requires that you first realize and then admit that you’re wrong. To be able to realize when you’re wrong requires that you keep an opn mind, be objective and willing to challenge yourself and your opinions at any time and hav no fear of losing anythng. And again, it’s not easy but for those who are able to do this the benefits are huge, especially for the long term.But me(a creature who never learnt from experience)!!!!!!!!!

You too Comrade.........................

MEA CULPA................................................................

Coz i trust u!!!!!!!!!

I thought u are the apostle of democracy..............

I thought you are the Guardian Angel of Communism........................

I thought you have some unconquerrable views and values in politics!

I thought you have some.......

i am not getting words to express my feeling for you

Always i justified you...in front of everyone...

But Comrade

you have proved........

There is no indifference between you and others.................

I am sorry to say

I feel pity for you that you have come down so low that i dont know what to say...

I feel sorry for you..............

Coz you too the Slave

Of the throne of Chief minister

and "DEMO-CRAZY"

I dont have anything to say instead:

MEA CULPA.........................

MEA CULPA.........................

MEA CULPA............................

b'coz i had the idiotic political faith....................................................

Life is "not" Beautiful

Many people are of the opinion that life is beautiful. Most of them will even take the time to explain to you why they think life is beautiful when you tell them that you have a different opinion about it. They’ll start naming many different things that should be seen as proof that life is beautiful, while conveniently pretending that they don’t see all the cruelty that is taking place around them.
As you can no doubt imagine by now, I don’t think life is beautiful at all. In fact, I even wrote before that life is not beautiful. I do believe that life can be, or could be, beautiful. But it’s not. There might be some nice moments in everyone’s life, but if you look at the overall picture, it just sucks. Badly. Just look at the way it always ends. Is there anything beautiful about that?
Isn’t it interesting that the first thing that babies do when they get born is that they start crying? If life was so beautiful, wouldn’t you expect babies to start laughing and smiling as soon as they enter the world? Shouldn’t they be happy about it? Why cry instead? Where does that come from? Most babies won’t smile until after they are at least a few weeks old. Why is that? They can’t smile for a few weeks, but are perfectly capable of crying from the moment they are born, and even do so quite frequently!
The reason why this is so, I believe, is because life is full of pain and sadness. The moment a baby gets born, he starts to cry most likely because he feels the hostility around him immediately and can perhaps even feel the sadness and pain that is to come. Maybe he even regrets being born and shows that by starting to cry as soon as he’s born.
The fact that babies are perfectly capable of crying from the moment they are born, and that most of them won’t show their first smile for a few weeks, also shows the nature of life. You get born being perfectly capable to feel pain and sorrow and to react to it, but it isn’t until weeks later when you start to learn how to smile. It’s almost as if the baby needs a few months to get used to the situation, and tries to make the best out of it in the end. It’s like after a few weeks of crying about the tragedy of being born in this world of pain, he starts to get an attitude of “hey, since I can’t do anything about this, I might as well get used to it and try to make the best out of it.”
And I can completely understand.
Afterall, it is what most people would do in any bad situation. Try to make the best out of it. So even though life sucks, why not smile when the moment is there to smile once in a while?
That, however, doesn’t change the nature of life. It doesn’t change the fact that everything in this world seems to be based on the principle of pain and suffering. And it never will.

Signs of "True Love"

Have you ever wondered how you know if you truly love someone? I think I have the answe r because i did that once(Now i feel ugly when i think about that person even if she had an influence at me).
When you know that you would genuinely be happy about the fact that someone you love is happy or happier with someone elase, then you’ll know that you truly love that person. I’m not talking about trying to be happy for that person, or pretending to be happy and trying to live with the fact that you can’t be with that person. I’m talking about really feeling happy for that person, being able to listen to that person , and sincerely being glad and happy about the fact that he/she is happy and having a good time. (I rrealized that and allowed her to break out from me even if i wounded much..but she dint realized that and dint give me back what i showed her)
This is the ultimate test of true love, because when you love someone, naturally you’re going to want to be with that person and be loved back by that person. You’re going to want it really bad. I don’t think that I have to explain how seriously strong this feeling can be; I’m sure you know. So if you can stand the fact that this person would prefer, and would in fact be happier, with someone else, then that is already an accomplishment. But if you can also truly feel happy for that person while you have to let him/her go with someone else, then, I think, that that is more than enough proof of true love.
Ofcourse you will also feel sad and be in pain because of the fact that you can not be with that person, but when it’s true love, the feeling of being happy for that person will be far greater. So much greater that you would rather choose to have that person be with someone else instead of you, if it would make him/her happy or happier, or if you know that that would be better for that person.
A very good friend of mine tried to explain this to me in last january and she didn’t succeed. And this was a person who had a lot of influence on me. In fact, I’ve learned a lot from her and she’s really had a lot of influence in shaping me into the person I am today. At this point I’m not sure anymore if this is a compliment to her or an insult,Because she dsnt have any role in my life now. but that’s a different subject. What I’m trying to say is that this is not an easy concept to accept or to believe. Even I could not believe it one year ago. In fact, I just refused to even consider believing it or giving it a chance. It seemed so absurd. If you really love someone, you’ll want to be with that person, right?? How can you even stand seeing that person with someone else?? Let alone feel good about it! It’s just not possible!
Well, it is possible. Just don’t try to explain it to people who don’t want to believe it. Don’t even try to explain it to the person you love and are letting go. You could risk giving them the impression that you probably don’t love them very much. Not enough in any case. Because afterall, if you were seriously crazy about them, you wouldn’t be able to so easily, as it may seem, let them go. Let alone feel happy about it!
But the truth is the opposite. And as you probably already know, the truth is often more difficult to believe. True love is never only about your own needs. It’s never about a feeling of possession. It’s about liking someone so much that you would accept to lose if by doing that you can help that person to win. Even if it means losing the most precious and important thing to you at that time, namely that person him/herself.
There are two things, which are related to the current subject, that most women who know me (Including ----*) can’t understand about me:
I can’t be jealous. I don’t seem to notice or get angry when they try to make me jealous, leading them to think I’m not very interested in them or don’t love them that much.
I can easily let go, also leading them to think I’m not very interested in them or don’t love them that much.
With the above explanation, it should be easy to understand why I can’t be jealous. It should also be easy to understand why I would easily let someone go if she wanted to be with someone else, or if she had other priorities. It seems like most women would expect you to desperately fight to keep them with you, and if you don’t, they see it as a sign that you don’t care about them that much, or don’t love them that much. Some (most?) women even play games with you, just to see if you react the way they expect you to (become jealous). And if you don’t, they get really upset. If you do, it confirms you love them. I’ve actually experienced such a case at least once. After her little experiment, she noticed that I didn’t react the way she expected. And I noticed her acting strange to me and getting angry. And when I finally asked what was wrong, she was essentially like “You don’t love me! You don’t want me that bad! You don’t even get jealous!” And I’m like “Oooh, that’s what you were trying to do?” And from my perspective, it was quite hilarious.
It should also be easy to understand why I would allow my girlfriend or wife to go out on her own, even if she goes out to meet guys (friends, colleagues etc.). I understand that most guys would have issues with this.
I do however expect her to be very honest and faithful. And as is usually the case: with lots of freedom, comes lots of responsibility. And I can be equally as rigorous, as I can be flexible. Which basically means that there’s a 99.999% chance that if you damage my trust in you, it could be fatal. Fatal for the relationship, but not fatal for my love for you. Because otherwise, it would not have been true love.

The Good,The Bad And The Ugly............

The Good The Bad And The Ugly.....................

Seven Wonders

Recently,Asianet selected 7 wonders of kerala thru SMS voting, and we all know the Campaigns and online polls for the 7 wonders of the world in 2007 (At last it became kind of cheap business boosting tricks ). I wonder why there are only 7 wonders of the world (Does this have anything to do in connection with 007! or were the finalists have in touch with a Numerologist!) Again I wonder what the criteria is for something to be considered a wonder of the world. Here are my 7 Wonders. The Human Body: particularly the Brain - A Divine blend of Civil, Mechanical, Electrical Engineering. The Human Mind - You can trust anything but your own mind. The feeling of separation like I am different from you or I am special and male/female attraction. Love - Especially the Love of Animals and Birds, in how they take care of their little ones! Woman-ultimately unpredictable!!like the climate of middle east.especially Kuwait's.we cant(even creator also) for see how she will behave or how she will break her promises and how easily she forget everything. The Intelligence behind Creation - Just look at the transportation cycle of water from a cloud to Rain to a river to the ocean and again to a cloud. Does Intelligence in Creation exist because of Love? Money - No comments. The Power behind the creation of our Universe - What's HE up to? What does HE want ?

Childhood Innocence

Sometimes I wonder what the world would be like if people remained children forever. Would all the issues around the world still exist? Would people still be fighting all the wars? I have a hard time imagining all of that happening if everyone (including me)still looked and behaved so cute and innocent like the baby girl in the picture above,then there is no jealous,ego,cheating ..etc..etc...What an Utopian idea...........Dont think i am mad..but sometimes i am like this.....

Extra Marital Affairs

Recently i hav seen an article in "India Today"about the increasing rate of Extra marital affairs in india and a survey report related to it.THey comparing this thing with decades and seems having a very high growth rate.I know some cases and some persons who maintain an affair even if they have a loving partner.How a person can go out when having a partner?now i dont know why it happens but i think after get in to married life i can understand the forces behind this.

Women and men tend to get in extra marital affair even after having a smooth, sweet and charming relationship. It’s common being involved in marital infedility, and even rampant the world over. Getting into such affairs arises mostly when certain needs of couples remain unsatisfied due to negligence or improper functioning of usual activities in a marriage.
I think It’s hard to explain that why even after having a successful marriage, couples resort the marital infidelity way. Lots of needs are there and all can’t be satisfied through a marriage. But then, certain needs must be satisfied, and emotional needs fall in the most significant criteria that must be fulfilled at any cost to keep the relationship the way it is meant for.
Marriage is meant to bring happiness, joy and a life full of ecstasy all the time for couples. Initially all marriages would be fine wherein couples get maximum satisfaction even without bothering too much for anything else. But not in the longer run after the heat and momentum of a new wedding goes, there creeps in a void. The couples who were attached finely start finding their all practices and activities monotonous for few reasons even they find hard to know.
Even sexual activities are in full swing, but then the void remains. Physical needs are getting its due, though somehow the emotional needs are taking the backseat.I know some couples they were very close in the initial stage of their married life..both were in a "first stage fantasy"So could forgive the drawbacks and faults each other.but after that the reality began when they both are busy with their job.then lack of communication arise and that resulted a gap.but there was no attempt to solve the thngs and lit up the love in their life again. And that’s the point which prompts couples to indulge in extramarital affairs. In some cases, even couples change their usual tracks much earlier than the expected durations and start find avenues to be satisfied anyhow.
When emotional needs are ignored, the tendencies like stress,depression come in the relationship to further drive the individual to resort to other unfaithful ways.We can just imagine how we react when our "own person"avoid us or become arrogant to us(In my case i can say it will be unbearable for me). The situation becomes even worse for the victim when he/she finds it hard to clearly distinguish the emotional needs of the partner. Attempts are made, but of no avail for being of the same patterns.
Rather, efforts should be made to take care of the aspects that would drive the marriage either with physical needs or emotional needs. The best way is to try knowing the likes and dislikes of your partner, and then rising up to those expectations if the purpose is to stop extramarital affairs to take place.

The faithful spouse has worked hard for the Maintaining the relation; but no matter how hard they work, the unfaithful spouse is going to have an affair because of their own deficiencies.

So try to be a faithful one at least!!!!!!!

Valentine's day

These days there is a lot of hoopla that surrounds Valentine's Day. I keep hearing people's discontent about commercialization of this day especially by our Archies and Hallmark, the absolute need to buy cards. Last week i saw a statistics on how much a man spends on his girlfriend(I'm also nothing better...spent much for her now regretting for that) and how much less a husband spends on his wife.
I must be a romantic at heart because I love Valentine's Day. I don't love it because of the "extravaganza" of our guys(i was in dat category)for buyng gifts to their sweethearts, although they are nice. I like Valentine's Day for its purity and what mean by that day. The idea of an international day to celebrate people's love for family, friends and significant others. Its almost like Christmas,Eid or Onam but without all the religious divisions to mess things up.
I agree it can become too much when people take elaborate initiatives to show their significant other how they feel about them and have a need to top it from year to year. What's more socially jaded is when they feel they need to spend exuberant amounts of money.
In my opinion this is a day to spend time together, call family and friends(most of guys cal their sweethearts at any cost, even if they dint cal their parents). I think human contact can be more enriching than elaborate gift.
Going back to commercialization of Valentine's Day I refuse to buy cards and I send my family and friends .
To contradict myself now, I will say that m inspiring my friends to buy something to their beloveds,yesterday i suggested some valentine's day brand new perfumes to sanoj's g.f(he said me he wants to do something different other than cards and chocolates).All of friends(Especially Guys)be cost conscious when you spend money for these occasions.
Happy Valentine's Day to Everyone!!

My B'day

Am Going to celebrate on 12th February... It's interesting: I don't feel 27years old. even this moment also i feel m a child in 9 or 10.I'm always "Amma's"child and my Sister wass there to taking care of all my matters may be because of that i feel so.Even after she became a wife and a mother she caring me like a kid and i have the freedom to share any of my problems and help me to find out solution.I faced a very hard time and unexpected twists in the situations and in 2008, i know she was there like my guardian angel and she did everything possible to help me for recovering that situation.This is a "Divine"face of woman.

I can say this coz i experienced the most ugly face of a woman from that "Beautiful Beast" who is a disgrace to all females.

I am not planning to celebrate my b'day...and i think nobody knows about that except my parents,sister and my close friends.So m expecting some calls from India on 12th.I dnt feel anything special or a brand new day, dont know why..may be because of loneliness. i will just feel a regular day as usual.

Unconditional Relationships(???)

Last week i read a blog about unconditional relationships.i just leave comments in the blog because i like that much.Today saw some responses for my comments in that blog..then i just feel contrary to what i said in her blog.

Apart from materialistic relations,all relationships are based on expectations . It doesn’t matter what kind of relationship it is, or between whom or what the relationship is. It could be a romantic relationship between two people, a partnership, friendship, between businesses and clients, or for a few technical examples, relationships between two tables in a database.There could be more than two sides or parties involved, expect one or more things from the other side in order for the relationship to be established and to keep existing. The relationship cannot keep existing if either side does not meet the other’s expectations, and in such a case has no use.
In this post I’ll concentrate more on romantic relationships, or relationships based on love. So when I use the word relationship, that’s what I mean from now on.
In my opinion, the only expectation that should exist in a romantic relationship between two people, is giving and receiving love. Any romantic relationship which is based on other needs is doomed to fail. This has always been my main requirement for entering into a romantic relationship with someone else. The only thing I would expect from her, is to love me and give me enough attention and anything that naturally comes with that. I wouldn’t expect anything else. And I would want her to expect the same from me(I dint get it back in my past relation).
These days people enter into relationships with all kinds of wrong motives and expectations. This is one of the reasons why many relationships don’t work on the long term. For example, you have women, usually in their late 20s when they feel like they have partied enough and want a more stable life now, looking for men “to take care of them.” You have young boys and girls wanting to be with someone to be popular, or to be able to feel like they are part of something. Relationships based on such motives don’t have a lot of potential to last long, simply because they are based on the wrong things. If a girl is with you because of your money, what do you think will happen when one day you don’t have enough of it anymore? If she’s with you because of your status, what do you think will happen when one day you lose it?
A relationship based on love, true love , has the most potential to last long. It doesn’t mean that it will always last long, but just that it has the best chances to last long. And here, I’m talking about a relationship between two people as we know it in the traditional sense, where they remain faithful to eachother and essentially agree to belong to eachother (with or without marriage). Even this relationship, even though it has the best chances to last longer, often doesn’t last very long these days. The reason why is because people and situations can change over time. Apart from the fact that people can naturally change over time, it’s often also the case that they were just pretending to be someone else at the start of the relationship, just to meet the other’s expectations in order to establish the relationship. You can’t pretend to be someone else your whole life, and sooner or later, the other person will start to see the real you. Apart from the fact that it’s not easy to pretend to be someone else your whole life, you can also never be happy being someone else and doing the things that you don’t like.
Another reason why such a relationship doesn’t last very long, is that it is often limiting to both people involved, and its duration will depend on the level at which both people are able to live with the limitations they impose on eachother. then that such a relationship is not natural. People naturally want to be and feel free. And so limitations in relationships, or with regards to love, will only cause trouble.
Essentially, what I’m saying is that relationships especially a love affair or a marital relation will require a lot of energy to keep going.

Trust and Truth

Trust, like love and respect, is an inside job. Until we learn to trust ourselves we will continue to find people and situations in our world that mirror back to us the fear that we just can’t trust anybody.
Most of us are taught that we can’t trust ourselves. And in a sense it is true. If we don’t really know ourselves, how can we possibly make good decisions? If we don’t really know what is important to us, how can we make wise choices. So many of us go through the motions, attempting to do what we think we should, or what other people think we should and then find that we don’t or can’t follow through on whatever we said we’d do.
We may decide on a course of action based on the outcome we are hoping for but before we get too far down that road we either lose interest or give up because it wasn’t what we thought it was and isn’t taking us anywhere near where we intended to go. Maybe we continue with it anyway because we committed to it or promised. (I just noticed that if you put committed and promised together you get the word compromised.)
As we stop buying into what other people prescribe or what works for them and realize we each have our own way, our unique set of priorities, preferences and parameters as individuals, we are on our way to self-trust. Taking the time to first discover who we are, what is important to us and perhaps most importantly, what we enJoy, we develop a relationship with ourself that supports us in building confidence in our ability to choose those things that are truly appropriate and inspiring to us.
When we begin to trust ourselves our experience with everything and everyone in our life shifts, and as Goethe said, “… then we will know how to live.”
And, so it is!

My view

All of my friends who dont believe in communism always criticise me for being a communist.But i cant see any fault in communism and there is many many good things instead.then i dont know why these people always blaming communism and communists for some forgivable human errors .no one do anything bad in this world other than Communists??always they treating my fellow people as kind of arrogant or cruel people. Ma friends says communists are atheists and they spreading atheism .i dnt know how n when..some people have some mis conceptions about the things and they they thoroughly follow that through out their life..

What if someone doesn’t believe in god? An atheist and a religious man have the same right to preserve and spread his beliefs. If it is wrong to be an atheist, it is equally wrong by the missionaries to spread the religion. So this is really DUMB!!!!! In my case i can honestly say i'm spiritual but religious.what is the wrong in that?? i dont think a medium is needful to to talk to god.Yes. There is no problem with it. Being a Communist does not mean that I should not believe in God. Nowhere is it said or written -- be it Marxist-Leninist doctrines or party manifestos -- that a Communist should be an atheist. Most party cadres are believers.Dou you think all the people who visit the churches or temples are believers or spirituals??/no never..The best service to god is serving humanity instead of arguing for their religion.If our religious leaders had believed that sinners would go to hell, they would’nt be doing all these ‘education business’’hospital business’ whatsoever. am i right???

I believe god is love and he doesnt have any discrimination in the name of religion,colour,cast and other human made craps........

I Am Alive

I am alive - because I have been bought back to life. No more the the empty shell, no more nightmares...i think i successfully removed that dirty woman(is she a woman?) from my mind who couldnt look others as human beings..
now I can breathe deeply, fly freely,laugh loudly, think without any grievances, act with conviction and love without reservation. I hold my head high, knowing that I showed my level best to that dirty devil as a loyal friend and a loving, respecting very very best friend.
After free from the emotional shackles i am realising that vampire trapped me by showing its sweet voice ,cute face and its emotions.but i am grateful to that creature coz it help me a lot to realise that how terribly a person can cheat another one.

Today, my old life is over, in the past, to be learnt from, but never repeated.
Today, my new life truly begins - a celebration, the future,the love for my blessings and sunspots will grow, and I cant stop smiling!
i know There will be someone for me after all this mess -

I dont think marriages are made in heaven...if it made in heaven then why is there divorce?

One of my best friends vibin always says the importance of being in love.definitely its very nice and people can maintain good friendships and all.(i think i'm a failure in that)but most of the people are not successful to maintain a love affair for a long time.some people are marry their sweet heart after taking much efforts and all.but how many of them have a happy married life?After the initial stages of married life or when they start to face the real life problems mostly there will be a lack of pampering,understanding and care.Even after forming a gap they try to maintain that relation for some sake.

if i look for a partner only for money and for social status how can you say my marriage is a "made in heaven one"?bcause i married that person only for money and other benefits.not for true love.am i right?

I think the term "Made in Heaven"marriages are a fluke. if we just look outside we can see may couples who dont have any kind of harmony and love in their life.after the first stage fantasy of married life they may start to feel that they spending their life with a stranger.in such cases how we can say that marriages are made in heaven??its an Utopian term naa? kind of crap.without the existence of love, loyalty and care how we can use "made in heaven"(if there is something like heaven..i dnt think there is a heaven where all decisions are taking place)

If you step outside your own personal beliefs and try to reason out possible answers to this question objectively, you'll come up with the following thoughts:
If, on the other hand, there is Heaven (God):
Its possible that when there's genuine love at the time of a marriage that marriage was "made in Heaven", but if love dies then maybe we can assume Heaven didn't plan to have that love last forever.
Its possible that everyone in our lives are supposed to be there at the time they are and that Heaven has plans for people that don't always include remaining married. People learn a tremendous amount about life, themselves, marriage, and love when a marriage fails. Many failed marriages result in children. The final result of these marriages are are the children become orphans.the children will be the preys.Marriages could be made in Heaven, but maybe they're not made to last for a reason.
All life in this Universe is temporary. It may be wrong to assume that Heaven plans for permanence in living creatures.
Its possible that only marriages that last and thrive are made in Heaven, and that marriages that don't aren't.
When you think about how normal, loving, mothers feel about their children you get an idea of the solid, unwavering, permanent, deep love that Heaven can create. At the same time, Heaven doesn't create that love in 100% of parents. This would lead us to believe that Heaven creates love only some of the time, and the rest of the time it has its reason for not creating that permanent bond. Its possible it works the same way for marriages.
When you think about that normal bond mothers have for their children forever, though, you can imagine how a marriage should be built on a bond that may be different but is of equal permanence. Not all marriages are, so not all marriages could be said to have been made in Heaven.
This brings us back to the idea that not all marriages are built on that super-permanent, solid, kind of love; and that Heaven may instead create relationships for reasons other than that permanent bond. Again, though, if Heaven is creating relationships for some other reason then that goes back to the idea that once Heaven's reason has been served the plan could be that both partners move on.
Marriages and divorces aren't really about who can live happily together at all times and forever. Its about who has that super-strong, permanent, deep bond that draws the partners together rather than driving them within themselves and/or away from the marriage. Many people believe very deeply that once a relationship becomes destructive and unhealthy that is not the way Heaven wants people to live the one life they've been given. These people believe that only nurturing and loving situations are condoned by Heaven.
People who have not been through divorce don't understand what is at the root of it any more than people who have never experienced that solid, permanent, deep bond only some married people have experienced know what that's like.
So what about the mediocre or good-enough marriages that people keep together in spite of their lack of true, solid, love? Well, maybe they were made in Heaven for some reason. Maybe those people weren't suppose to experience that super-strong, intense, love that only some do.
What about the destructive, horrible, lonely and even abusive marriages that are unhealthy for the partners and children, but that people hold together anyway? Since I don't happen to believe that Heaven ever condones anything that is destructive to the soul I don't believe marriages like this are made in Heaven. Of course, I suppose that the punishment for staying in these destructive situations is that the people feel they are living in Hell here on Earth. The trouble is the children in these marriages get punished and damaged too.
I, personally, suppose I believe that each life and each soul has its individual journey and that there isn't a one-size-fits-all rule that Heaven imposes on everyone. If there's a plan that even a marriage that's made in Heaven is to dissolve then that's what happens. Another possibility is that people marry the wrong person, which amounts to going against Heaven's plans for what it takes for a good marriage. As a result, the people suffer the consequences of divorce. If this is the case, you can't blame the people most of the time because most of the time they marry the wrong person out of not knowing any better.
Still, most divorced people will tell you that they don't see their original marriage as a mistake because no marriage that results in such wonderful children could ever be seen as a mistake.
On the other hand, is there a chance that all marriages - wonderful, ok-enough or rotten and destructive - are made in Heaven and are supposed to last forever? In all objectivity, I suppose there is that chance. I suppose the punishment for divorce could be all that awful things that can happen as a result of it. I suppose, too, maybe divorced people even get sent to Hell. I don't happen to believe that, but in all objectivity, I have to acknowledge that its also a possibility. Maybe Heaven decides that some people shall be deprived of love, peace, and happiness for their whole life - for no reason that anyone understands. Maybe Heaven doesn't want people trying to find those things in their life. Maybe Heaven wants children coming from empty, cold, destructive, home environments for some reason.
Most religions are the first to say that our physical bodies are not who we are and that our souls are what its all about. One might ask if the soul's yearning to be in a situation that isn't destructive to that soul, itself, could ever be considered a sin. One might even ask if the soul's wish to move on (through divorce) toward eternity is the very thing that tells it its time to move on.