You too Comrade.........................

MEA CULPA................................................................

Coz i trust u!!!!!!!!!

I thought u are the apostle of democracy..............

I thought you are the Guardian Angel of Communism........................

I thought you have some unconquerrable views and values in politics!

I thought you have some.......

i am not getting words to express my feeling for you

Always i justified you...in front of everyone...

But Comrade

you have proved........

There is no indifference between you and others.................

I am sorry to say

I feel pity for you that you have come down so low that i dont know what to say...

I feel sorry for you..............

Coz you too the Slave

Of the throne of Chief minister

and "DEMO-CRAZY"

I dont have anything to say instead:

MEA CULPA.........................

MEA CULPA.........................

MEA CULPA............................

b'coz i had the idiotic political faith....................................................

Life is "not" Beautiful

Many people are of the opinion that life is beautiful. Most of them will even take the time to explain to you why they think life is beautiful when you tell them that you have a different opinion about it. They’ll start naming many different things that should be seen as proof that life is beautiful, while conveniently pretending that they don’t see all the cruelty that is taking place around them.
As you can no doubt imagine by now, I don’t think life is beautiful at all. In fact, I even wrote before that life is not beautiful. I do believe that life can be, or could be, beautiful. But it’s not. There might be some nice moments in everyone’s life, but if you look at the overall picture, it just sucks. Badly. Just look at the way it always ends. Is there anything beautiful about that?
Isn’t it interesting that the first thing that babies do when they get born is that they start crying? If life was so beautiful, wouldn’t you expect babies to start laughing and smiling as soon as they enter the world? Shouldn’t they be happy about it? Why cry instead? Where does that come from? Most babies won’t smile until after they are at least a few weeks old. Why is that? They can’t smile for a few weeks, but are perfectly capable of crying from the moment they are born, and even do so quite frequently!
The reason why this is so, I believe, is because life is full of pain and sadness. The moment a baby gets born, he starts to cry most likely because he feels the hostility around him immediately and can perhaps even feel the sadness and pain that is to come. Maybe he even regrets being born and shows that by starting to cry as soon as he’s born.
The fact that babies are perfectly capable of crying from the moment they are born, and that most of them won’t show their first smile for a few weeks, also shows the nature of life. You get born being perfectly capable to feel pain and sorrow and to react to it, but it isn’t until weeks later when you start to learn how to smile. It’s almost as if the baby needs a few months to get used to the situation, and tries to make the best out of it in the end. It’s like after a few weeks of crying about the tragedy of being born in this world of pain, he starts to get an attitude of “hey, since I can’t do anything about this, I might as well get used to it and try to make the best out of it.”
And I can completely understand.
Afterall, it is what most people would do in any bad situation. Try to make the best out of it. So even though life sucks, why not smile when the moment is there to smile once in a while?
That, however, doesn’t change the nature of life. It doesn’t change the fact that everything in this world seems to be based on the principle of pain and suffering. And it never will.

Signs of "True Love"

Have you ever wondered how you know if you truly love someone? I think I have the answe r because i did that once(Now i feel ugly when i think about that person even if she had an influence at me).
When you know that you would genuinely be happy about the fact that someone you love is happy or happier with someone elase, then you’ll know that you truly love that person. I’m not talking about trying to be happy for that person, or pretending to be happy and trying to live with the fact that you can’t be with that person. I’m talking about really feeling happy for that person, being able to listen to that person , and sincerely being glad and happy about the fact that he/she is happy and having a good time. (I rrealized that and allowed her to break out from me even if i wounded much..but she dint realized that and dint give me back what i showed her)
This is the ultimate test of true love, because when you love someone, naturally you’re going to want to be with that person and be loved back by that person. You’re going to want it really bad. I don’t think that I have to explain how seriously strong this feeling can be; I’m sure you know. So if you can stand the fact that this person would prefer, and would in fact be happier, with someone else, then that is already an accomplishment. But if you can also truly feel happy for that person while you have to let him/her go with someone else, then, I think, that that is more than enough proof of true love.
Ofcourse you will also feel sad and be in pain because of the fact that you can not be with that person, but when it’s true love, the feeling of being happy for that person will be far greater. So much greater that you would rather choose to have that person be with someone else instead of you, if it would make him/her happy or happier, or if you know that that would be better for that person.
A very good friend of mine tried to explain this to me in last january and she didn’t succeed. And this was a person who had a lot of influence on me. In fact, I’ve learned a lot from her and she’s really had a lot of influence in shaping me into the person I am today. At this point I’m not sure anymore if this is a compliment to her or an insult,Because she dsnt have any role in my life now. but that’s a different subject. What I’m trying to say is that this is not an easy concept to accept or to believe. Even I could not believe it one year ago. In fact, I just refused to even consider believing it or giving it a chance. It seemed so absurd. If you really love someone, you’ll want to be with that person, right?? How can you even stand seeing that person with someone else?? Let alone feel good about it! It’s just not possible!
Well, it is possible. Just don’t try to explain it to people who don’t want to believe it. Don’t even try to explain it to the person you love and are letting go. You could risk giving them the impression that you probably don’t love them very much. Not enough in any case. Because afterall, if you were seriously crazy about them, you wouldn’t be able to so easily, as it may seem, let them go. Let alone feel happy about it!
But the truth is the opposite. And as you probably already know, the truth is often more difficult to believe. True love is never only about your own needs. It’s never about a feeling of possession. It’s about liking someone so much that you would accept to lose if by doing that you can help that person to win. Even if it means losing the most precious and important thing to you at that time, namely that person him/herself.
There are two things, which are related to the current subject, that most women who know me (Including ----*) can’t understand about me:
I can’t be jealous. I don’t seem to notice or get angry when they try to make me jealous, leading them to think I’m not very interested in them or don’t love them that much.
I can easily let go, also leading them to think I’m not very interested in them or don’t love them that much.
With the above explanation, it should be easy to understand why I can’t be jealous. It should also be easy to understand why I would easily let someone go if she wanted to be with someone else, or if she had other priorities. It seems like most women would expect you to desperately fight to keep them with you, and if you don’t, they see it as a sign that you don’t care about them that much, or don’t love them that much. Some (most?) women even play games with you, just to see if you react the way they expect you to (become jealous). And if you don’t, they get really upset. If you do, it confirms you love them. I’ve actually experienced such a case at least once. After her little experiment, she noticed that I didn’t react the way she expected. And I noticed her acting strange to me and getting angry. And when I finally asked what was wrong, she was essentially like “You don’t love me! You don’t want me that bad! You don’t even get jealous!” And I’m like “Oooh, that’s what you were trying to do?” And from my perspective, it was quite hilarious.
It should also be easy to understand why I would allow my girlfriend or wife to go out on her own, even if she goes out to meet guys (friends, colleagues etc.). I understand that most guys would have issues with this.
I do however expect her to be very honest and faithful. And as is usually the case: with lots of freedom, comes lots of responsibility. And I can be equally as rigorous, as I can be flexible. Which basically means that there’s a 99.999% chance that if you damage my trust in you, it could be fatal. Fatal for the relationship, but not fatal for my love for you. Because otherwise, it would not have been true love.

The Good,The Bad And The Ugly............

The Good The Bad And The Ugly.....................

Seven Wonders

Recently,Asianet selected 7 wonders of kerala thru SMS voting, and we all know the Campaigns and online polls for the 7 wonders of the world in 2007 (At last it became kind of cheap business boosting tricks ). I wonder why there are only 7 wonders of the world (Does this have anything to do in connection with 007! or were the finalists have in touch with a Numerologist!) Again I wonder what the criteria is for something to be considered a wonder of the world. Here are my 7 Wonders. The Human Body: particularly the Brain - A Divine blend of Civil, Mechanical, Electrical Engineering. The Human Mind - You can trust anything but your own mind. The feeling of separation like I am different from you or I am special and male/female attraction. Love - Especially the Love of Animals and Birds, in how they take care of their little ones! Woman-ultimately unpredictable!!like the climate of middle east.especially Kuwait's.we cant(even creator also) for see how she will behave or how she will break her promises and how easily she forget everything. The Intelligence behind Creation - Just look at the transportation cycle of water from a cloud to Rain to a river to the ocean and again to a cloud. Does Intelligence in Creation exist because of Love? Money - No comments. The Power behind the creation of our Universe - What's HE up to? What does HE want ?

Childhood Innocence

Sometimes I wonder what the world would be like if people remained children forever. Would all the issues around the world still exist? Would people still be fighting all the wars? I have a hard time imagining all of that happening if everyone (including me)still looked and behaved so cute and innocent like the baby girl in the picture above,then there is no jealous,ego,cheating ..etc..etc...What an Utopian idea...........Dont think i am mad..but sometimes i am like this.....

Extra Marital Affairs

Recently i hav seen an article in "India Today"about the increasing rate of Extra marital affairs in india and a survey report related to it.THey comparing this thing with decades and seems having a very high growth rate.I know some cases and some persons who maintain an affair even if they have a loving partner.How a person can go out when having a partner?now i dont know why it happens but i think after get in to married life i can understand the forces behind this.

Women and men tend to get in extra marital affair even after having a smooth, sweet and charming relationship. It’s common being involved in marital infedility, and even rampant the world over. Getting into such affairs arises mostly when certain needs of couples remain unsatisfied due to negligence or improper functioning of usual activities in a marriage.
I think It’s hard to explain that why even after having a successful marriage, couples resort the marital infidelity way. Lots of needs are there and all can’t be satisfied through a marriage. But then, certain needs must be satisfied, and emotional needs fall in the most significant criteria that must be fulfilled at any cost to keep the relationship the way it is meant for.
Marriage is meant to bring happiness, joy and a life full of ecstasy all the time for couples. Initially all marriages would be fine wherein couples get maximum satisfaction even without bothering too much for anything else. But not in the longer run after the heat and momentum of a new wedding goes, there creeps in a void. The couples who were attached finely start finding their all practices and activities monotonous for few reasons even they find hard to know.
Even sexual activities are in full swing, but then the void remains. Physical needs are getting its due, though somehow the emotional needs are taking the backseat.I know some couples they were very close in the initial stage of their married life..both were in a "first stage fantasy"So could forgive the drawbacks and faults each other.but after that the reality began when they both are busy with their job.then lack of communication arise and that resulted a gap.but there was no attempt to solve the thngs and lit up the love in their life again. And that’s the point which prompts couples to indulge in extramarital affairs. In some cases, even couples change their usual tracks much earlier than the expected durations and start find avenues to be satisfied anyhow.
When emotional needs are ignored, the tendencies like stress,depression come in the relationship to further drive the individual to resort to other unfaithful ways.We can just imagine how we react when our "own person"avoid us or become arrogant to us(In my case i can say it will be unbearable for me). The situation becomes even worse for the victim when he/she finds it hard to clearly distinguish the emotional needs of the partner. Attempts are made, but of no avail for being of the same patterns.
Rather, efforts should be made to take care of the aspects that would drive the marriage either with physical needs or emotional needs. The best way is to try knowing the likes and dislikes of your partner, and then rising up to those expectations if the purpose is to stop extramarital affairs to take place.

The faithful spouse has worked hard for the Maintaining the relation; but no matter how hard they work, the unfaithful spouse is going to have an affair because of their own deficiencies.

So try to be a faithful one at least!!!!!!!

Valentine's day

These days there is a lot of hoopla that surrounds Valentine's Day. I keep hearing people's discontent about commercialization of this day especially by our Archies and Hallmark, the absolute need to buy cards. Last week i saw a statistics on how much a man spends on his girlfriend(I'm also nothing better...spent much for her now regretting for that) and how much less a husband spends on his wife.
I must be a romantic at heart because I love Valentine's Day. I don't love it because of the "extravaganza" of our guys(i was in dat category)for buyng gifts to their sweethearts, although they are nice. I like Valentine's Day for its purity and what mean by that day. The idea of an international day to celebrate people's love for family, friends and significant others. Its almost like Christmas,Eid or Onam but without all the religious divisions to mess things up.
I agree it can become too much when people take elaborate initiatives to show their significant other how they feel about them and have a need to top it from year to year. What's more socially jaded is when they feel they need to spend exuberant amounts of money.
In my opinion this is a day to spend time together, call family and friends(most of guys cal their sweethearts at any cost, even if they dint cal their parents). I think human contact can be more enriching than elaborate gift.
Going back to commercialization of Valentine's Day I refuse to buy cards and I send my family and friends .
To contradict myself now, I will say that m inspiring my friends to buy something to their beloveds,yesterday i suggested some valentine's day brand new perfumes to sanoj's g.f(he said me he wants to do something different other than cards and chocolates).All of friends(Especially Guys)be cost conscious when you spend money for these occasions.
Happy Valentine's Day to Everyone!!

My B'day

Am Going to celebrate on 12th February... It's interesting: I don't feel 27years old. even this moment also i feel m a child in 9 or 10.I'm always "Amma's"child and my Sister wass there to taking care of all my matters may be because of that i feel so.Even after she became a wife and a mother she caring me like a kid and i have the freedom to share any of my problems and help me to find out solution.I faced a very hard time and unexpected twists in the situations and in 2008, i know she was there like my guardian angel and she did everything possible to help me for recovering that situation.This is a "Divine"face of woman.

I can say this coz i experienced the most ugly face of a woman from that "Beautiful Beast" who is a disgrace to all females.

I am not planning to celebrate my b'day...and i think nobody knows about that except my parents,sister and my close friends.So m expecting some calls from India on 12th.I dnt feel anything special or a brand new day, dont know why..may be because of loneliness. i will just feel a regular day as usual.

Unconditional Relationships(???)

Last week i read a blog about unconditional relationships.i just leave comments in the blog because i like that much.Today saw some responses for my comments in that blog..then i just feel contrary to what i said in her blog.

Apart from materialistic relations,all relationships are based on expectations . It doesn’t matter what kind of relationship it is, or between whom or what the relationship is. It could be a romantic relationship between two people, a partnership, friendship, between businesses and clients, or for a few technical examples, relationships between two tables in a database.There could be more than two sides or parties involved, expect one or more things from the other side in order for the relationship to be established and to keep existing. The relationship cannot keep existing if either side does not meet the other’s expectations, and in such a case has no use.
In this post I’ll concentrate more on romantic relationships, or relationships based on love. So when I use the word relationship, that’s what I mean from now on.
In my opinion, the only expectation that should exist in a romantic relationship between two people, is giving and receiving love. Any romantic relationship which is based on other needs is doomed to fail. This has always been my main requirement for entering into a romantic relationship with someone else. The only thing I would expect from her, is to love me and give me enough attention and anything that naturally comes with that. I wouldn’t expect anything else. And I would want her to expect the same from me(I dint get it back in my past relation).
These days people enter into relationships with all kinds of wrong motives and expectations. This is one of the reasons why many relationships don’t work on the long term. For example, you have women, usually in their late 20s when they feel like they have partied enough and want a more stable life now, looking for men “to take care of them.” You have young boys and girls wanting to be with someone to be popular, or to be able to feel like they are part of something. Relationships based on such motives don’t have a lot of potential to last long, simply because they are based on the wrong things. If a girl is with you because of your money, what do you think will happen when one day you don’t have enough of it anymore? If she’s with you because of your status, what do you think will happen when one day you lose it?
A relationship based on love, true love , has the most potential to last long. It doesn’t mean that it will always last long, but just that it has the best chances to last long. And here, I’m talking about a relationship between two people as we know it in the traditional sense, where they remain faithful to eachother and essentially agree to belong to eachother (with or without marriage). Even this relationship, even though it has the best chances to last longer, often doesn’t last very long these days. The reason why is because people and situations can change over time. Apart from the fact that people can naturally change over time, it’s often also the case that they were just pretending to be someone else at the start of the relationship, just to meet the other’s expectations in order to establish the relationship. You can’t pretend to be someone else your whole life, and sooner or later, the other person will start to see the real you. Apart from the fact that it’s not easy to pretend to be someone else your whole life, you can also never be happy being someone else and doing the things that you don’t like.
Another reason why such a relationship doesn’t last very long, is that it is often limiting to both people involved, and its duration will depend on the level at which both people are able to live with the limitations they impose on eachother. then that such a relationship is not natural. People naturally want to be and feel free. And so limitations in relationships, or with regards to love, will only cause trouble.
Essentially, what I’m saying is that relationships especially a love affair or a marital relation will require a lot of energy to keep going.

Trust and Truth

Trust, like love and respect, is an inside job. Until we learn to trust ourselves we will continue to find people and situations in our world that mirror back to us the fear that we just can’t trust anybody.
Most of us are taught that we can’t trust ourselves. And in a sense it is true. If we don’t really know ourselves, how can we possibly make good decisions? If we don’t really know what is important to us, how can we make wise choices. So many of us go through the motions, attempting to do what we think we should, or what other people think we should and then find that we don’t or can’t follow through on whatever we said we’d do.
We may decide on a course of action based on the outcome we are hoping for but before we get too far down that road we either lose interest or give up because it wasn’t what we thought it was and isn’t taking us anywhere near where we intended to go. Maybe we continue with it anyway because we committed to it or promised. (I just noticed that if you put committed and promised together you get the word compromised.)
As we stop buying into what other people prescribe or what works for them and realize we each have our own way, our unique set of priorities, preferences and parameters as individuals, we are on our way to self-trust. Taking the time to first discover who we are, what is important to us and perhaps most importantly, what we enJoy, we develop a relationship with ourself that supports us in building confidence in our ability to choose those things that are truly appropriate and inspiring to us.
When we begin to trust ourselves our experience with everything and everyone in our life shifts, and as Goethe said, “… then we will know how to live.”
And, so it is!